some things never change....

9 june was my last schooling day for my degree first yr. So, we hv some sort like a farewell party among all the students in first yr n second yr degree. I went, cause i learnt that our prof would come as well too. Usually they wont come n this is really a rare change one has to grab onto it. My friends here also told me that last yr, our math teacher was so drunk till he got up on the table to dance throughout the whole night. Wao. I was kinda eager to see how pro he is in dancing. Haha.

But then, when i was there,i felt something strange, jz dunno y. I jz dont like the atmosphere there, so noisy n disturbing. I still prefer staying at home n enjoy a peaceful n silent night then. Now only i notice that my style hasnt change a single bit even though i had stayed here for 2 yrs alrdy. Maybe taurus ppl are jz too stubborn over things n dont change so easily once they got addicted to something. Seriously, the way i talk, the way i think, the way i say rude words to all my friends n evrythng that i do here are jz the same as the things that i used to do when i was in sibu, jz dunno y. Still sticking to those japanese songs, although dont really understand the meaning behind them, still like greeting my old best friends who i didnt see for ages with some rude words, n also the same of thinking, always think that only hardwork will garantie success in the very far end of it, jz dunno y. Maybe i was born to be like that, being unable to change so easily even though time passes..

After having our buffet together, it was 9 pm alrdy. Then, the 'clubbing' part of the party had jz started. I went into the place where we were supposed to go for clubbing, seeing many ppl dancing like crazy ppl there. Straight away after that, i felt uneasy towards it, jz dunno y. Maybe because of that kind of atmosphere or maybe because seeing ppl dancing n drinking like crazy ppl there. Can u imagine it, those french gals all are 1 yr or 2 yrs younger than me, n yet they can drink beer jz like they are drinking fresh water. N hell, they can danse throughout the whole night non-stop. I think this is the main reason y i dont really interested in french gals, too open in thinking, bahaviors n dressing. Dont hv the very sense of security when u hv such a gf. So, after that, i jz went back home without staying any longer, as i expected. haiz, watever, cause i used to be loner alrdy. oh ya, now only i realise that, after i came over to france, i had nobody who i can call him or her as my best friend. Maybe i dunno how to stick around or maybe i dont like their way or maybe they are afraid that they will lose face when fooling around with a stranger or maybe they dont like the fact that a stranger is even proer than them. Watever, dont really matter n dont really care. I used to be loner for more than 1 yr alrdy, jz let it be like that for the next few yrs then. Although i dont hv real best friends here, i still hv some french friends here, jz that, we cant chat over watever we want like wat i did with all my old pals last time. I think it is because of the difference of culture n the barrier of language, cause my french isnt really fluent when i speak n moreover, i dont really like language n dont really care about it. The thing that i only notice now is that the number of friends that i hv is very less if compared to other ppl. Although i got 100+ contact list in msn, most of them belong to the same friends of mine cause last time they changed their account n added me in their new one n i dont really bother to delete the old contact. Quite a few number of them are strangers n sry cause i dont really like strangers jz added me like that in their contact list, jz like i knew them be4. The rest of them are my old friends but i dont really chat with them nowadays since most of them are so damn busy. haha. Seem like i am still the old me, still like to fool around in a small group with all my best friends. N i also notice that, the older u become, the harder u will find a best friend who u can share all things with him, jz dunno y. Maybe we become more mature over time n dont simply believe in 'friendships forever' this kind of bullshit things? dunno. But, the most important point is, friends are mesured in term of quality but not quantity. A real best friend in ur whole life is more than enough than dozens of bullshit useless fellows who fool around with u jz in order to gain some advantages from u.....