goodbye to those noobies..

Time flies once again n i had never noticed that i had alrdy passed a week after coming back to my hometown here. N today morning, two noobies, vin n kna will be on their way back to sg n kuching. Sad, sad. I didnt see them for the last two yrs n now they wanna leave alrdy. But, wat can i do instead? nthg else, unless fooling around with them while i can n yes, i did that. Almost every night i went out limteh either with vin or kna. But, in the end, i didnt go to gu tian with kna as i expected last time. Last time we planned to get there together, but it was raining cats n dogs that time, so we jz canceled our plan n stayed at home. Wat a pity, but nthg can be done. But, we did go back to our old school together to meet up with some of our old teachers. N madam tan even asked me y i didnt bring any chocolate back to share with them. Haha. If only i had told them about the price of the chocolate that i brought back to sibu this yr, sure they dont feel like wanna taste it anymore. Watever la, as far as i know, she always wanna joke with me one n i dont care at all. N even our vice principal, francis ngu asked us, since u guys are all future engineer (vin, marconic n me, kna is a future english teacher), can u guys come out with some nice ideas to overcome the problem of flood in sibu? Wth, i am studying chemical engineering, vin is taking some courses that are related to designing phones one while marconics is doing e n e. Our courses got nthg to do with the flooding condition in sibu at all, so how come we can come out with some solutions then? However, that time we didnt make a single sound, since we dont want to make him lose his face in front of his students. But then, it was three of us who had lost our faces in front of him. Haha, dont care, cause our faces got no value at all. Actually, that day was the third day we planned to go back to school since we couldnt make it in the first n second day.

The first day, this monday, vin n i promised to go back to our school at 8 sharp in the morning. But then, i woke up at around 8 n i called him. He was still so damn sleepy that time. Seeing that he was still sleepy that time, i jz canceled our plan that day n changed it to the following day. The second day, i woke up at around 9 n i quickly grabbed onto my phone to see whether got any miss call from him or not. No, nthg at all. No even a msgg from him. Then i was so damn sure that he was still sleeping that time. Wth, so i canceled our plan that day again. Then only we made it the following day, together with kna. Kna came to my house at 8 something n i was busy settling all the households thingy that time. After some moments, vin called me n asked me to go out to hv breakfast together n that time i was having my own breakfast at my home. He really kuan moh. After that we promised to really go back to our school this time. So kna n i waited for vin n marconic to finish their breakfast first while fooling around in my house a bit. We talked about something. At 10 something, then only they called me to tell us to go back to school together. They came to my house n fetched kna n me in marco's car. We went back n we met with madam tan n francis ngu. N we met with our chinese teacher too. Unfortunately, we didnt meet with chem teacher, madam dia. Sad sad. Or else, sure she would hv made some jokes with me again, jz like last time.

Yesterday morning, david, marco, vin n i went out to hv our breakfast again. Then, vin came over to my house to play with my lousy guitar there while teaching me some new thingy. At 2 something i fetched him back n we promised to go for a movie that night. I didnt go to cinema for quite a long time alrdy, so it was jz fine for me. At 7 something, marco came to fetch me n we went for a movie together. After that, we went limteh first while waiting for arthur's flight to arrive in sibu at around 10. At 10 something, we changed our venue n arthur, eddie, jackie n kung chung came over to join with us. haha. nice one, old pals came over to meet up finally n arthur was jz on his journey back from penang that time. But, he sure need to come out that time cause that noobie vin will be on his flight today morning to go back to sg. They really wanna do kuan xia, one had jz come back last night, n the other one will be back to sg the following day. Funny like shit, no need to be so coincidence bah. Then, we chatted about tonnes of things from 10 to 1 something. N i think their styles are jz the same, no difference at all. Eddie still like to make fun with me, jz like vin. Still so noob n yet he will be going to UMS in sabah soon enough. N this yr i brought back some souvenirs for them too, jz like last yr. Last yr, i brought back some key chains for them, but this yr, i brought back some football thingy that i intentionally brought in london while visiting chelsea's stadium last time. Since eddie likes that football team so much, sure he will appreciate it very much. Haha, watever la.

N kna will be on his way back to kuching today too. Wth, y they always wanna choose the same day to go back? Is it a real coincidence or wat? Meaning that after that, i will be so damn bored in sibu alrdy. All close friends went back to busy with their things alrdy, jz left me alone in sibu again like last time. Wat to do to pass the time leh? Maybe will jz spend my time with my guitar or other things then....

commentless on my siblings.....

After coming back for 2 days, i notice that something is jz the same in my family. That is, my eldest bro is jz like the way he was be4 my flight to france, although he is now 24. Still like to talk like someone who can earn tonnes of money, always say that wanna go to miri, kk, kl or sg to work to earn lots of money, then to buy car, buy house n get married. Sometimes he even asks me whether got any job opportunity in my place in france over there or not. Since last time he worked as a learner of cook in one restaurant in sibu, so he would like very much to ask me to bring him to work there, saying that staying in my place, learning french from me, then working in a foreign country n trying to learn their unique ways of cooking. I said, wth? Pls la, having dreams is a good thing, but having dream without any hard work wont bring u anything no matter how nice ur dreams are. Now, he is unemployed n always sleeping in the room there, watching dramas, or playing with laptop there the whole day. Wth, dont simply talk bullshit things in front of me, n pls, u are 24 alrdy, n yet still thinking like a 16 yrs old teenagers, always wanna fool around n thinking that my parents will help him up no matter wat happens. Shit, dont joke with me, n dont ever dream of going overseas with me, if u ever think like that. U think going overseas is somesort like kids playing with sand? U need to handle ur passport, ur staying places, ur meals, ur working places, ur languages barriers n most importantly, ur manners when communicating with other ppl who treat u as a stranger there. N do u think that all ppl there are jz so damn friendly, so willing to help a stranger up like u ? Pls, stop dreaming, dont get looked down by other ppl will require more than any hard work ardly, not to mention to earn respect from other ppl by showing them how pro or skillfull u are in studies or in ur field. He had never brought any things back for home, every single thing he uses here is brought by my parents although he started working for more than 6 yrs alrdy. Wat he knows is simply changing working places from one area to another, thinking that he can earn more in other places. Haiz. My parents are commenting on his ways now, n i jz keep quiet there, since my parents' talkings wont do any goods alrdy, wat about mine, as a younger brother of his? Haha. Dont care, hope that he will become mature one day n it wont be too late by that time.



My second bro, on the other hand, at least is better than the other two siblings. He is now still studying in Kedah, taking account or thingy like that. Watever, since his stpm result wasnt really that good, so he got no choice, but to ask for ptptn to continue his studies to get a diploma or a degree be4 going to work. Still studying, but always says i am so damn lucky since i got a jpa scholarships n can go buy all sorts of things that i want, regardless of the price. Wth, u think that i can jz go n spend my money like that? Sry, if ever i do like wat he says, sure long time i had broken alrdy. I save over times n only buy the things that i need, especially thingy for gaming. But, dont u ever think that i jz simply buy things like that without considering about its price. After all, it was his fault too, cause he didnt work hard when he was in form 4 or 5, making him disqualified to apply for any scholarships that time. Now wanna envy me? Haha, funny like hell, man. U need to think about the consequences for every decision that u had made in ur life. N after making ur choice, dont ever regret about it, jz continue to move on, regardless of the cost it takes at the end of it. Since he had made his choice, then jz continue move on, n come out with something at the end of it. Now, he is holidaying like i am, but he usually sleeps till 12 or 1 pm in the afternoon, then always go out with his gf to settle down things. Haha. Watever la. I got no comment on that thingy, since they arent always together too. So, only left me n my eldest bro who is always in the room there doing nthg at home. Then, for sure i am the one who need to settle down all those households thingy in the house, although my parents didnt ask for it. Time to grow up, need to be more independant n need to settle down all the things myself alrdy. N besides, I dont like fooling around everyday jz like that without coming out with anything at the end of it. Time flies n it waits for no man. So, u jz need to grab every moment that u have to come out with anything good at the end of it, jz watever, learning guitar, learning japanese or learning other things. For other things, i got no comment on him, at least he knows his goal n is more mature than the other 2 siblings.



The other one is my younger bro. He didnt even finished his form 3. Be4 pmr, he jz left the school n went working alrdy. I think maybe he got the influences from his useless friends. If he can stick to one job n continue to work on then, it is jz fine for me. Since he doesnt like studying, so wat can he do besides working then? No other choice alrdy. But he sticks to smoking, one thing that i dont like very much. It is somesort like playing with ur own health, n commiting suicide in a long way. My parents always scold him n they even beated him up last time using rotan or watever things, but he is still the same, never listenned to them. N many of my friends also asked me to go n give some advices for him since i am his elder bro too. I said, if my parents' advices wont work, wat do u think of mine? Better keep ur mouth shut n settle down ur things then. He is jz like that, never listen one n always disobedient over wat we ask from him. But now, at least he starts working alrdy n i am really hoping that he can become more mature in the future. Jz wait n see how things change since it isnt my life. Last time even my teachers were shocked when they found out that actually my younger bro was one of the problem students in sacred heart. How come a top student like me got a younger bro who always causes problems in the school, it doenst make any sense to them, neither to me. But, this is the fact n i cant never change it no matter wat. Dont care about it, jz hoping that he will become more mature in his thinking as he grows older. Working or studying, actually i dont really care about it.



It sounds like i am the most mature son among all my other siblings, but my parents jz treat all of us fairly. I really hope that my eldest n younger bros will become more mature n dont simply talk bullshit thingy. N jz now i went out limteh with my parents, only 3 of us, n now only i notice that actually my parents have become older alrdy, watching over their back when we went back together made me feel like i was so damn useless back then, only made them worried about me. Haiz, but my journey to france had really changed me a lot, i admit it. Now i will appreciate wat i got n try everything i can to take care of them later.

holidaying but wat am i doing?....

Finally back to my hometown after staying for another one yr in france. The first thing that came out from my mouth after getting down from the plane was 'damn it, it is cb hot here, feel like wanna go back straight away'. Haha. Ya, it is the fact cause in france, even during summer, we can only get up to 26 or 27 degree, but here, wao, a normal fine day can get up to 30 degree, not talking about real hot days or days without raining. Haiz, wat should i do then? Alrdy made all the ways back to sibu for 2 days, regretting for wat now? After all, i am going to meet up with my real close friends during this holiday too, a nice one, right? We had alrdy been separated for more than 2 yrs, although we still keep in contact in msn or fb thingy. N last yr when i was back, none of them were here, cause they didnt hv holiday that time. N last yr i only had 1 month holiday, unlike this yr i got around 3 months of long summer break. Watever la, jz wanna make full use of my holiday.

17 morning i made myself back to my hometown. I arrived in sibu at 9 something n my dad, my second bro n his gf were waiting for me at the airport there that time. Then, we went to take our breakfast cause none of us had taken breakfast be4 coming to airport. N i asked for a laksa after didnt taste it for more than 1 yr. Haha. Really miss its taste, since sarawak laksa isnt the same like the one in semenanjung there. N after considering the hot weather here, i jz got a strong feeling in my heart to go for an ABC straight away. So i asked, but sadly, the place that i went doesnt hv it. Wth, my first meal in sibu after staying for 1 yr in france, u tell me u dont hv it? Haiya, makes me feel even sader. Dont care la, cause tonight i would be going out to limteh with my old pals too, that time i sure can get an ABC as i wished. After reaching home, i went to untie all my luggages n then gave the jacket n the bag to my dad. My mum was working that time, so i cant give the bag to her directly. Doesnt matter at all, as long as i safely brought back all the souvenirs for them. Last time my parents even scolded me cause those things were a little expensive for them. Haha. I dont really care about the price thingy since they dont ask me to buy things for them everyday too, only once in a while n after i came to france cause maybe, i think that at least they got something to show to their friends that their son is now studying in france although they werent highly educated ppl last time. To hv the very sense of proud feeling of me, i suppose. Jz like last time, when i was still in form 4 or 5, at the end of yr, our school got one prize giving day. N our school will invite those prize receivers' parents to come over to our school during that day to show to them how well their children had performed throughout the whole yr. My parents were invited too, but, my dad would never go for that kind of event, cause he is afraid that he would make me lose my face, since he isnt a highly educated person. He is afraid that he doesnt know how to reply anything if ever other parents ask him something concerning the professional fields' thingy. U know, normally only ppl who are working in professional fields can hv children who can perform well in school, with high intelligence level or watever. Normally it is like that, but not for my case. Haha, jz dunno y. But my mum went. She went with me for 3 yrs alrdy, ever since this kind of event was introduced since i was still in form 3. She went cause she thought that, since my dad knows nthg, then she was the one who must go then, because she thought that if ever nobody wanna go for me, then the school ppl maybe will think that my parents were so damn proud n didnt wanna give face to them. Haha, ppl really care about their faces, dont they? Watever la...So we went then. When i was in form 5, be4 that event, when we were waiting inside the hall there, my mum came to see me, asking me y i didnt tell her that i am the one who would get the most number of prices throughout this event. I said, ha? really? I had never paid any attetion to that thingy, Then she said, some teachers asked her when she first arrived in the hall there about whose is her son, n then she said out my name n pointed at me. Then, those teachers jz said, wao, he is ur son, sure u will feel very proud of him cause ur son is very famous in this school for his scientific subjects thingy. N when she scanned through the manuel of the event, she noticed that i am the one who would receive the most number of prices that day, around 10, i think. I said to her, wat la? That kind of thingy doenst really matter bah. Then she asked, y i never told her be4. I replied, how the hell am i suppose to know about it. Cause we can only know about that after scanning through the manuel, n that manuel is only out the morning be4 that event. Then i say to myself, wao, parents really care about that thing xia. But, for me, it is jz like normal thingy, dunno y. N i also noticed that, everytime when i went out with my parents, when we came across with their friends or collegues, they would jz say to them, this is my son n he is the one that i talked to u guys last time, he is a top student in his school, bla...bla...bla...bla....thingy like that, making me dunno what to say that time. N after their friends left, i would jz ask them, u 2 no need to go n show off things about me bah, since it isnt a big matter at all. They would jz keep quiet that time, n i know that they will never change this kind of habit. Haiz, dont care la, if they really wanna do so, wat can i do then, after all, i think all parents are jz like that bah, but i dont really like ppl showing off of me, or showing off in front of me, since we are jz all normal human beings, we got nthg to be proud of. N the strange thing that i notice now is that, my real real real best friends arent really that kind of real real pro ppl, for exmpl, david, vinson, kna n nyj....they are jz like normal ppl, some are quite pro, i admit, but not really pro like hell or wat. Maybe i think that i got nthg to talk about with ppl who are really pro like hell, since they only care about studies thingy in their whole life n sry, for me, my whole life isnt about studying only. We got tonnes of things to talk about besides studying, jz dunno y.

Wao, talking nonsense about myself all the ways. Haha, back to our topic. 17 night, i went out with vinson n marconic. We went limteh n i kept searching for ABC. Where are u, my ABC, i really need u especially during this hot weather here. Unfortunately, the kopi shop that we went doesnt hv any ABC. Sad, sad, made me disappointed again. After that, we went back to marconic's house cause they wanna watch the football match that night. Ya, i used 'they' there, instead of 'we'. Haha, football isnt my thing at all, n that night i nearly had fallen asleep while they are enjoying the football match there. N vinson even told me that, hey, kid, i thought that after going to france, a western country, i thought that u will start to like watching football. Wat a reason? Some ppl will jz never change no matter where they had been be4, i replied. So, i told them that i nearly fell asleep n wanna went back my home. Then i left. N after that football match, they called me out again. Out again? ok la, since it was still quite early that time. N this time, we tried another shop to search for ABC. Bad luck, they dont hv ABC too. Wat la? I tried 3 times in one day n i didnt even get wat i want? Wth is going wrong today? Cincai la, then i asked for a kampua cause i was a little bit hungry that time. N that time they were bursted into laughter after hearing wat i ordered, even the tauke who was asking for our order was laughing there too. Huh? Wat the hell is wrong with u guys, i asked myself. Then, the tauke said, sry, dont hv. Wat? dont hv again? Walao, wat a bad luck, watever i searched today i didnt find it. Then i changed to mee goreng basah. After the tauke left us alone in the table there, i asked 2 of them, y u guys were laughing that time? They said, u really cb stupid n noob jz like last time, cause every sibu ppl sure know that this shop doesnt hv any kampua n this shops only got goreng type of food. I replied, wat la? I had never been here be4 in my whole life n i only come back to sibu once per yr, how the hell am i suppose to know that? LOL....LMAO....no wonder even the tauke was laughing that time. First day back to sibu, cant find wat i want although tried it out in three different places, n i was screwed by my friends too. HAHA. Really bad luck xia. Dont care la, after all, they cant make fun of me everyday too, if lucky enough, only once per yr, if not, i also dunno when can we hv that kind of experience back alrdy. But, seriously, i really enjoyed the moment when i was hanging out with them, although vinson n david are always trying to screw or make fun with me. I think maybe during this moment, i can feel that, at least they still treat me like i am a normal person, not the top student or pro person that everyone knows about me the first time. That kind of feeling is so damn relaxing n cool, at least for me. But, i think that not all ppl are like me, some jz wanna be respected by others all the times, even by their friends n their friends dont even hv the right to make fun of them. I dont like that kind of feeling, feel like urself are on top on other ppl, n look down on other ppl. Useless ppl, no manners at all. So, if u wanna make fun of me, u are always welcome, i dont really mind that thingy.

After that, we promised that 18 morning will be out to hv breakfast together again, but this time david will be coming with us. Last time he wasnt free, since his bro n sis were coming back to sibu n he needed to go to airport to pick them up. But, i slept till 11 am in the morning, wat the hell is wrong with me? Last time be4 i back, i can only sleep till 7 or 8 am in france, no matter how hard i try to fall asleep after that. N when i back, y suddenly got such a dramatical change? Maybe because of the time difference? So, i need to suit back my living style here again. But, honestly, i dont like sleeping till so late in the morning, cause u are jz wasting ur precious time doing nthg good. I would rather prefer waking up early in the morning, settling down all the things, n then use ur time to do something or practise something so that u dont waste away ur time jz like that. Haiz, need to change back my habits soon or else, i will jz come out with nthg. Back to out topic again. We promised to hv breakfast together, but when i woke up, it wss 11 alrdy, n nobody called me be4. Wth, man. They said if ever someone is still sleeping in the morning, they would jz call that person to wake him up. Then, y the hell i didnt receive any call back then? Watever. That night, we met up together again. Then vinson said, hey, y nobody called him? marconic n david said, hey, we were waiting for u guys to call too, cause we didnt know when we should go together. Wat la? No wonder, all of them were waiting for other ppl to call them. Cheh, if ever u do like that, sure u will wait in vain. N for me, i was sleeping haft dead back then, but u cant blame me too, since i didnt sleep for 2 days alrdy n the time differences thingy made the situation worsen. zzzz. They all wanna do kuan, wat la....Haiz, jz like the old time. Quite miss it. All kuan king. Haha. Dont care, after all, we did finally meet up that night, n we chatted a lot of things, about studying, working, socializing thingy. N i feel that everyone of us has grown up alrdy, after separating for more than 2 yrs. I went to france, vinson went to sg, david went to perak, n marconic went to Tarc. All of us have different points of view concerning working n studying. Our thoughts werent like the one we had beck in 2 yrs then. All of us had become more mature in different ways n we got tonnes of things to catch up too. Really nice. After separating for so long time n finally meet up again, that kind of feeling is so damn nice too. Our thoughts had changed, but our style is still the same, those 2 ppl jz wanna make fun with me xia, especially vinson. Haha, dont care, for me is ok cause i used to it alrdy. If ever one day he stops do like that with me again, sure i am gonna damn miss his noob style. Very strange, right? Although ppl keep making fun with u everyday n even u are very bored with it or watever, if ever that kind of ppl leave from ur life one day, sure u are gonna miss his style so badly. Human's feeling is jz kinda weird, right?

The night be4 flight....

Today is 14 june n tmr morning i will be on the plane back to malaysia. Time really flies n i had alrdy finished my first yr degree here. Jz now, i spent 1 hr plus to arrange all my luggages n other documents, such as my passport n tickets. The strange thing is that, i got no idea at all about those things that i need to bring back. N after sorting things out, then only i noticed that i got less things to drag along with me this yr, jz dunno y. Last time, i planned to bring my guitar back but i cancelled my intention since i thought that i got more things to bring back this time, but in the end...watever, jz leave some empty spaces in my luggages there to lessen my burden n after all, sure i can fill them up when i am on the way back to france since i plan to buy quite a few numbers of things in my hometown n bring them back to france.

The strange things about today was that, at the moment when i woke up from my bed, i felt nervous suddenly, jz dunno y. Nthg special about today, i suppose. It will be like other days, jz that i may need to go out a while to settle my train ticket thingy from rennes to paris. Wat is so special about today? I dunno n cant figure out the answer even till now.

Jz now was raining so damn heavily outside n i planned to go out for a walk n then lay down on the grass in the playground there to watch over to full moon. I think i only got that kind of experience twice in my whole life till now, one was during chinese club bbq in raymond's house, the other one was during the closing ceremony of the cultural festival in sibu when i was in form 4. I damn like that kind of feeling because i can forget about that kind of busy n hectic life that i am having now by doing so. Laying down on the grass, enjoying the cool night breeze which sweeps across ur face, watching over the full moon n letting ur mind mix with the relaxing atmosphere around u. Wao, so damn cool n relaxing. Besides that, i also like to watch over the cool water surface in one of the park in sibu last time. Kna was always with me last time n we talked about everything besides studying that time. Sitting on the stone chair, shading under the trees from the sun, watching over those ppl who are jogging in the park n enjoying the view of the cool water surface right be4 our eyes. Wao, damn relaxing too. Last time, we always went there right after we had finished our exams to relieve ourselves a bit. Damn miss that kind of feeling, maybe i will try it out again when i am back this time with him. Ok, almost time to stop now, need to bed soon cause the tiring journey will start tmr. nitez.

some things never change....

9 june was my last schooling day for my degree first yr. So, we hv some sort like a farewell party among all the students in first yr n second yr degree. I went, cause i learnt that our prof would come as well too. Usually they wont come n this is really a rare change one has to grab onto it. My friends here also told me that last yr, our math teacher was so drunk till he got up on the table to dance throughout the whole night. Wao. I was kinda eager to see how pro he is in dancing. Haha.

But then, when i was there,i felt something strange, jz dunno y. I jz dont like the atmosphere there, so noisy n disturbing. I still prefer staying at home n enjoy a peaceful n silent night then. Now only i notice that my style hasnt change a single bit even though i had stayed here for 2 yrs alrdy. Maybe taurus ppl are jz too stubborn over things n dont change so easily once they got addicted to something. Seriously, the way i talk, the way i think, the way i say rude words to all my friends n evrythng that i do here are jz the same as the things that i used to do when i was in sibu, jz dunno y. Still sticking to those japanese songs, although dont really understand the meaning behind them, still like greeting my old best friends who i didnt see for ages with some rude words, n also the same of thinking, always think that only hardwork will garantie success in the very far end of it, jz dunno y. Maybe i was born to be like that, being unable to change so easily even though time passes..

After having our buffet together, it was 9 pm alrdy. Then, the 'clubbing' part of the party had jz started. I went into the place where we were supposed to go for clubbing, seeing many ppl dancing like crazy ppl there. Straight away after that, i felt uneasy towards it, jz dunno y. Maybe because of that kind of atmosphere or maybe because seeing ppl dancing n drinking like crazy ppl there. Can u imagine it, those french gals all are 1 yr or 2 yrs younger than me, n yet they can drink beer jz like they are drinking fresh water. N hell, they can danse throughout the whole night non-stop. I think this is the main reason y i dont really interested in french gals, too open in thinking, bahaviors n dressing. Dont hv the very sense of security when u hv such a gf. So, after that, i jz went back home without staying any longer, as i expected. haiz, watever, cause i used to be loner alrdy. oh ya, now only i realise that, after i came over to france, i had nobody who i can call him or her as my best friend. Maybe i dunno how to stick around or maybe i dont like their way or maybe they are afraid that they will lose face when fooling around with a stranger or maybe they dont like the fact that a stranger is even proer than them. Watever, dont really matter n dont really care. I used to be loner for more than 1 yr alrdy, jz let it be like that for the next few yrs then. Although i dont hv real best friends here, i still hv some french friends here, jz that, we cant chat over watever we want like wat i did with all my old pals last time. I think it is because of the difference of culture n the barrier of language, cause my french isnt really fluent when i speak n moreover, i dont really like language n dont really care about it. The thing that i only notice now is that the number of friends that i hv is very less if compared to other ppl. Although i got 100+ contact list in msn, most of them belong to the same friends of mine cause last time they changed their account n added me in their new one n i dont really bother to delete the old contact. Quite a few number of them are strangers n sry cause i dont really like strangers jz added me like that in their contact list, jz like i knew them be4. The rest of them are my old friends but i dont really chat with them nowadays since most of them are so damn busy. haha. Seem like i am still the old me, still like to fool around in a small group with all my best friends. N i also notice that, the older u become, the harder u will find a best friend who u can share all things with him, jz dunno y. Maybe we become more mature over time n dont simply believe in 'friendships forever' this kind of bullshit things? dunno. But, the most important point is, friends are mesured in term of quality but not quantity. A real best friend in ur whole life is more than enough than dozens of bullshit useless fellows who fool around with u jz in order to gain some advantages from u.....