After coming back for 2 days, i notice that something is jz the same in my family. That is, my eldest bro is jz like the way he was be4 my flight to france, although he is now 24. Still like to talk like someone who can earn tonnes of money, always say that wanna go to miri, kk, kl or sg to work to earn lots of money, then to buy car, buy house n get married. Sometimes he even asks me whether got any job opportunity in my place in france over there or not. Since last time he worked as a learner of cook in one restaurant in sibu, so he would like very much to ask me to bring him to work there, saying that staying in my place, learning french from me, then working in a foreign country n trying to learn their unique ways of cooking. I said, wth? Pls la, having dreams is a good thing, but having dream without any hard work wont bring u anything no matter how nice ur dreams are. Now, he is unemployed n always sleeping in the room there, watching dramas, or playing with laptop there the whole day. Wth, dont simply talk bullshit things in front of me, n pls, u are 24 alrdy, n yet still thinking like a 16 yrs old teenagers, always wanna fool around n thinking that my parents will help him up no matter wat happens. Shit, dont joke with me, n dont ever dream of going overseas with me, if u ever think like that. U think going overseas is somesort like kids playing with sand? U need to handle ur passport, ur staying places, ur meals, ur working places, ur languages barriers n most importantly, ur manners when communicating with other ppl who treat u as a stranger there. N do u think that all ppl there are jz so damn friendly, so willing to help a stranger up like u ? Pls, stop dreaming, dont get looked down by other ppl will require more than any hard work ardly, not to mention to earn respect from other ppl by showing them how pro or skillfull u are in studies or in ur field. He had never brought any things back for home, every single thing he uses here is brought by my parents although he started working for more than 6 yrs alrdy. Wat he knows is simply changing working places from one area to another, thinking that he can earn more in other places. Haiz. My parents are commenting on his ways now, n i jz keep quiet there, since my parents' talkings wont do any goods alrdy, wat about mine, as a younger brother of his? Haha. Dont care, hope that he will become mature one day n it wont be too late by that time.
My second bro, on the other hand, at least is better than the other two siblings. He is now still studying in Kedah, taking account or thingy like that. Watever, since his stpm result wasnt really that good, so he got no choice, but to ask for ptptn to continue his studies to get a diploma or a degree be4 going to work. Still studying, but always says i am so damn lucky since i got a jpa scholarships n can go buy all sorts of things that i want, regardless of the price. Wth, u think that i can jz go n spend my money like that? Sry, if ever i do like wat he says, sure long time i had broken alrdy. I save over times n only buy the things that i need, especially thingy for gaming. But, dont u ever think that i jz simply buy things like that without considering about its price. After all, it was his fault too, cause he didnt work hard when he was in form 4 or 5, making him disqualified to apply for any scholarships that time. Now wanna envy me? Haha, funny like hell, man. U need to think about the consequences for every decision that u had made in ur life. N after making ur choice, dont ever regret about it, jz continue to move on, regardless of the cost it takes at the end of it. Since he had made his choice, then jz continue move on, n come out with something at the end of it. Now, he is holidaying like i am, but he usually sleeps till 12 or 1 pm in the afternoon, then always go out with his gf to settle down things. Haha. Watever la. I got no comment on that thingy, since they arent always together too. So, only left me n my eldest bro who is always in the room there doing nthg at home. Then, for sure i am the one who need to settle down all those households thingy in the house, although my parents didnt ask for it. Time to grow up, need to be more independant n need to settle down all the things myself alrdy. N besides, I dont like fooling around everyday jz like that without coming out with anything at the end of it. Time flies n it waits for no man. So, u jz need to grab every moment that u have to come out with anything good at the end of it, jz watever, learning guitar, learning japanese or learning other things. For other things, i got no comment on him, at least he knows his goal n is more mature than the other 2 siblings.
The other one is my younger bro. He didnt even finished his form 3. Be4 pmr, he jz left the school n went working alrdy. I think maybe he got the influences from his useless friends. If he can stick to one job n continue to work on then, it is jz fine for me. Since he doesnt like studying, so wat can he do besides working then? No other choice alrdy. But he sticks to smoking, one thing that i dont like very much. It is somesort like playing with ur own health, n commiting suicide in a long way. My parents always scold him n they even beated him up last time using rotan or watever things, but he is still the same, never listenned to them. N many of my friends also asked me to go n give some advices for him since i am his elder bro too. I said, if my parents' advices wont work, wat do u think of mine? Better keep ur mouth shut n settle down ur things then. He is jz like that, never listen one n always disobedient over wat we ask from him. But now, at least he starts working alrdy n i am really hoping that he can become more mature in the future. Jz wait n see how things change since it isnt my life. Last time even my teachers were shocked when they found out that actually my younger bro was one of the problem students in sacred heart. How come a top student like me got a younger bro who always causes problems in the school, it doenst make any sense to them, neither to me. But, this is the fact n i cant never change it no matter wat. Dont care about it, jz hoping that he will become more mature in his thinking as he grows older. Working or studying, actually i dont really care about it.
It sounds like i am the most mature son among all my other siblings, but my parents jz treat all of us fairly. I really hope that my eldest n younger bros will become more mature n dont simply talk bullshit thingy. N jz now i went out limteh with my parents, only 3 of us, n now only i notice that actually my parents have become older alrdy, watching over their back when we went back together made me feel like i was so damn useless back then, only made them worried about me. Haiz, but my journey to france had really changed me a lot, i admit it. Now i will appreciate wat i got n try everything i can to take care of them later.
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