Friendships forever....or wat?

Actually, wat is the meaning of friends? Jz now, I recalled about one beautiful night in 2006. That night was our chinese club bbq day and we had it in one of our friends, raymond's house. That time, we really had great fun, and i still can remember the atmosphere that time. Huong hong n joo seng were busy preparing the chicken wings, while all others, Koh hieng, chun fatt, raymong loh, david, lawrence, jacky n others are busy eating. Vin, marconic, eddie n I were at another corner that time, talking about a new japanese song. Indeed, i really enjoy listening to those japanese songs, although, i dont really understand what does the lyrics all mean. watsoever. After all has done, we went into raymond's house and had our dinner together. And, surprisingly, that day was the last day of the cultural festival at sibu. So, we got somesort like a closing ceremony that night, since that festival is really a huge one in sibu. And then, Huong hong fetched me, and kna n nyj went together with us too. We enjoy watching the firecrakers till the very end of it n by the time when we were back, it was around 1 am already.



But sadly, that was ages ago, although those images are still so clear in my mind. And after spm, raymond ngu flew to uk straight away, without saying goodbye to all of us, n then the next one was gabriel, my useless dog. Always want to quarrel with me, even over some very small topics. He flew to australia, n now is doing pharmacy at perth. Next one would be Koh hieng who went to nz. Followed by chun fatt n others who went to kl straight away, didnt ever bother to wait for the result to come out. All are rich guys, i can say nothing about them. watever. I was fooling around with vin that time, learning eng n guitar, skipping all my early form 6 class. Now, when i think back, when i went back to school that time, even madam dia n tan, my chem n maths teacher, made fun with me, saying that i am too pro and sure can get a scholarships to get the hell out of there, so dont ever bother to come along for the early form 6 class? Haha. I was laughing all the way that time. I answered, that isnt really the reason, i got something else to settle now and by the way, during the early form 6 class, they dont really have their class properly, many teachers arent really teaching that time. So, instead of wasting my time like this, wat about spending my time to improve my eng n learning guitar at the same time then? After that, they said, ur choice, up to u. ok then.


Where was I? oh, ya. Almost all my friends went out to kl that time, leaving behind all those poor ppl. Some are fooling around in form 6 while some are working to earn money, n only got a small group of ppl who were like me, did nearly nothing that time. But, we still in contact with each other and whenever we were free, we jz called each other out n went limteh together. That time, i thought that it would last like this for a while. And then, my fate came n i came over to france. Really dunno y am i end up here n yet, many girls keep repeating the same sentence to me, u should feel lucky, because u are in france now, can jz go over to paris n visit effiel tower, so romantic.....what the hell? that useless, valueless steel is really that special in girls' hearts? sry, but i cant figure it out. I kept observing that tower when i was at paris last time n yet, cant find anything special about it. Jz want to say, sry girls, i dont care whether it is real romantic or not, but wat do care is to finish all my business here n then head to japan straight away.



Oh, ya. We were talking about my friends who went out to semananjung or other places. And then, i flew over to france. During the early period, one day, my senior, from the same secondary school as mine, who chose the same programme as me too, came over to pay me a visit. I was busy chatting with my friends that time using msn. He saw it n said out one thing that i cant forget till now. Better enjoy chatting now, because after a while, u wont be able to hv such an occasion already. After hearing that, that time, i really felt like want to punch him in his face straight away. He thought that my friends were jz like his? All has jz disappeared into the atmosphere after going to overseas? Damn shit, dont u ever dare to take my friends the same as urs. But, time really can prove everything, cant it? Now, only after nearly 2 yrs time, the only old friends who are still in contact with me are kna, nyj, david n elias. For kna, our relationships is almost the same like last time, whenever i got something, sure he is the first one i talk to. nyj is still like that, but now seldom talk with him already, because he is a real busy man now, ever since he got gf. For dav, sometimes he will jz drop by to give some comments on facebook n elias, i call him whenever i am free but not that always, since he is busy with his stpm n other things, a real business man after all.



Ya, now only i notice that i had became like my senior. I dunno whether they are really busy doing their things, assignments or studying or jz dont ever bother to leave a msg to say hii whenever they are free. All of us jz become strangers back like the time be4 we met. I got 100+ contacts in my msn list n usually every night got 20+ friends online. 5 of them are strangers to me, dunno where the hell did they got my e mail n added me like i knew them be4. 5 of them are busy ppl, always put away as their status n they really are 'away' all the time, damn busy till no time left for them to shit. 5 of them are my old friends, but everytime when i want to open the conversation with them, i am stuck there, dunno wth should i talk about with them. say hii? how are u today? where are u now? bla..bla....all are useless things. N sarcastically, the other 5 are my new friends in malaysia that i made after i came over to france n yet, we chat a lot more than any of my old friends, jz dunno y. Very strange, is it? In facebook, some old friends, like gabriel, dav, jacky, n vin will jz come to drop some comments when i posted something interesting or funny about them. N surprisingly, those ppl who had dropped almost all of the comments are my new friends too. So, wat is the meaning of friendships forever then? all is jz a piece of shit? Haha. Some friends told me that their uni life is really busy, but how come my uni life in france is some sort like damn free? i can ever say that i got more free time than last time when i was in from 4 or 5, maybe because i dont need to study history now, or maybe i dont join any cocuriculum activities at all in my school now. Haiz, this world is very cruel, everyone jz has to move on, to achieve his goal, while leaving all ohters behind. But y the hell i jz cant do like that? So stubborn for wat then?

Or, maybe the other reason is that, i am too pro, so many friends jz want to stick around with me, in order to seek for help whenever they have that kind of need? Give a damn about it! That kind of friends are useless, good for nothings. Damn it, seem like pro ppl jz cant have a normal life like other ppl do, ever for their friends? Damn u. So, that is y i dont really like ppl make friends with me, only after they find out i was a top student in my school last time. That kind of ppl, useless one, jz get the hell out of my way. watever, maybe after all, it is my destiny that i mean to be a true loner...btw, a true hero doesnt need any girls n friends beside him....haha....