30/3 sunny

Next week got exam, but i still hvnt start studying one, now only i know that i am kinda running out of time alrdy. How come last few days i can still relaxed there n did nthg at all? Dunno whether got enough time to finish the whole things or not, even though i manage to look through it, but doesnt mean that i can remember all those details as well. Too many reactions need to remember, it is jz as hard as organic chem, that is y i hate it the most. Haiz, try my best n see...

29/3 sunny

Feeling so damn hot in the afternoon. Today nthg special at all, as normal as other days. I am jz kind of looking forward to the next holiday alrdy, although i dont think that i will hv many free time that time. Seem like got lots of things waiting for me to settle down yet, but jz cant put the mood on to do them. haiz haiz...

28/3 sunny

Afternoon i only got 1 class, n i intended to skip it one, since the teacher has alrdy given us the materials, he is jz gonna to explain it to us n then do some exercises in the class. But, in the end, i still went for it, cause that is the field that i am most porbably gonna to be specialized in. But, as i expected , more than half of the entire class has gone missing, all ponteng or didnt bother at all. As usual, n moreover, we didnt hv any class after that, so y bother coming then? Watever, even if i ponteng, i dont think that i am going to study in the afternoon, cause nowadays, i really cant focus in the afternoon. N need to spend some time for the project thingy as well.

27/3 sunny

Busy busy busy, tmr got a english presentation, but i dont think that i am well prepared enough. Last weekend jz spent 2 hrs seeing through all those important things b note them down on a paper. After that, i did the power point n that was all of it, didnt even bother to read through the texts for at least one time, cause i was busy doing other things then. Haiz, so i got no choice but hv to look through all those important things again, but i dont think it is gonna be helpful at all since i will always get nervous when i am talking in front of all the people. Haiz, dunno dunno.

26/3 sunny

Tired after coming back from school. Didnt even manage to take a short nap in the afternoon n right after that lab section, i was having serious headache of it. Got no choice but hv to go take a nap that time, or else i wont be able to concentrate to study later on. How come i feel like that i am getting busier if compared to last yr although those ppl keep saying that after i changed my school and enter the new engineer cycle, it should be a lot more easier? Getting more labs n projects, n need to spend more time to search n finish the report, it is not as free as i thought last time.

25/3 sunny

Study study the whole day, not really the whole day, at least i spent few hours searching for some informations about the english presentation. N then few more hours to prepare the lab for tmr. N then finally revise the subject that i am going to hv tmr. So, after that, didnt hv much time left alrdy. Almot sitting in front of the pc the whole day, but at least i still got some time for gaming jz for a while. Hmm, really need to get rid of that habit soon enough or else i will be doomed.

24/3 sunny

The weather is getting hotter n hotter. I was planning to buy some ice cream last time, but in the end, i didnt do so since i was still coughing right now. Watever, jz drink more water when it is hot then. N right now, i dont think that i got many time to fool around, since i got many things left behind at the time being. The following got 1 exam, but i still hvnt finish looking through the whole subject yet, not even dare to mention memorizing the important reactions or mechanismes. Project thingy need to finish it be4 holiday, n i got another english presentation the following week too. haiz haiz, running out of time alrdy.

23/3 sunny

Got lots of things to do at the time being, but really dont hv mood to do them all, alrdy feeling quite sick, then suddenly stomach ache there. Y my body always like that one? So weak weak. Better start to focus on studies now, since after holiday, i will hv all those exams alrdy n i cant even allow myself fail a single subject.

22/3 sunny

Feeling so damn sick these few days. One problem is didnt hv enough sleep every night, serious insomia even though i didnt take any nap in the afternoon, the other thing is that the weather is so damn unpredictable, so damn cold in the morning and night, but it is quite hot in the afternoon, my body jz simply cant adapt to that kind of weather. To be true, not only me myself, many other ppl from my class as well. Dulan with this weather changing period, each yr sure hv to fall sick at least twice, between summer and autumn n then between winter n spring, around this time. watever, it will end soon enough

21/3 sunny

Haiz, still waiting for their mail. Haiz, watever, if really no choice, then jz find some free time to call them early in the morning. If they dont want give me the contract again, then no choice but hv to go find other companies lol. Watever, can do much, since they said cant sign the document, so-called need to refer to the malaysia laws n so on. Haiz, cincai cincai, not up to me to decide. Still got 2 more weeks till the next holiday, but seem like still got quite a lot of things to do right now. Hope that i can actually got mood to do them.

20/3 sunny

Sometimes really feel so dulan with those sibu ppl. Asking me to reply as soon as possible, but right now i have been wating for around 2 weeks for them to reply my e mail. Really need me to call them everytime, are they all so damn busy, wont even open n go see their mails one? Or thinking that even france student need to do internship with them, so they can be a little proud, need me to call them in order to remind them each time? Wtf? I am getting so damn tired with their stupid attitudes like that, alrdy, long distance calling, sometimes the quality is jz not as good as u can imagine, cant even know wat the hell they are talking about, although i dont really care about the price. Haiz, troublesome, if really no choice, then try to call them again these few days.

19/3 cloudy

Feeling so damn sick today, last night dunno y got serious insomia, didnt even manage to fall asleep even until 3 am. Wtf is wrong with my body mechanisme. haiz, making me feel so damn tired n sleepy in the class. I was planning to ponteng those morning classes so that i can jz sleep n rest at home. N moreever, due to the unstable weather, it was so damn for few days, but the following day, it was fucking cold like that. How the hell can my body adapt to that kind weather, every yr, around the season change this time, i sure will fall sick for few times. dulan dulan.

18/3 rainny

Seem like i got so many things to do during this weekend, but i jz cant finish them at all. Haiz, as time passes by, it is really hard to catch things up again. Holiday will be coming in 3 weeks time, but dont think that i am jz gonna play n pass the time like that, cause after that holiday, we will start to hv our exams alrdy, n this time i cant allow myself to fail a single subject, or else it will so damn ugly, since i wont be here for the second section in august. Normally it wont be hard for me, but lets jz hope that all will go well then.

17/3 sunny

Went out buy things during this weekend, since i finally get my new refrigerator yesterday. I met 2 seniors in the supermarket there, lucikly they didnt ask for dinner together at night like last time. I really dont like going out during weekend, since it is the only chance for me to spend some free time to do my own things n rest at home.
Although some ppl say that it is not good at all, but i jz feel so damn lazy, n besides, when i am out, for sure i am gonna spend a lot of money to buy this n that or to eat this n that. watever watever

16/3 sunny

Organic chem lab will be finished next week, now i can finally feel a bit relaxed, since it is the thing that i hate the most. But, we are gonna to hv other classes afterwards. Watever, dont expect to hv any free time at all, like other ppl. For those in malaysia, i really dont understand them at all, seem like their classes are super damn free, can always on fb there all the times, n updating their status every moment, reporting things even when they are in toilets n so on. Really so damn free, like got no class or things to busy with at all? Watever, different ppl, different fate

15/3 sunny

Feeling so damn lazy to go to class these few days. Wth has jz happened to me? During the programming class today, i cant stay focus at all, feeling so damn sleepy the whole way. Haiz haiz, wat to do? Maybe got a lot of things to worry about recently? Refrigerator still like that, internship still the halfway, project thingy jz like that, presentation thingy hvnt started at all. N i didnt go buy things today too, cause it will be so damn useless again, since i still hvnt got my new refrigerator. Wat for buying n then need to throw them away again next time? Wasting money...

14/3 sunny

Nowadays it is starting to be quite hot alrdy, seem like summer will be coming soon enough. Haiz haiz, but the refrigerator problem is still there. My refrigerator borke down last time when i cleaned it, maybe during the process, i accidentally broke down something inside there, but i got no idea at all. I told the women working in the residence there, asking her to send someone to come to my house n check for it, but now it is almost a week alrdy, n nobody has come. Wtf, how can i live without my refrigerator, all my things will be spoilt like this. French style, doing work very late n keep delaying.

13/3 sunny

Afternoon got 1 presentation, but i felt so damn lazy, so i skipped it for the first time. Last time i went to those presentation n i learned nthg at all, so y bother it this time, since it will jz be totally those useless thingy? N some more, we got the documents necessary be4 going for that presentation alrdy, so y should i go? Better jz sleep n rest at home, even though after that i still got japanese, but i can still spend 2 hrs napping there.

12/3 sunny

No class in the afternoon for this monday, n i thought that i were going to study very hard this afternoon too, but in the end, i dunno wat did i do that time, more like jz fooling around online without any purpose. I got the e mail from those ppl, they said that they dont want to sign if i ever force them to do so, they will jz reject my application. Wtf, i heard from my senios whose friends did their internship in malaysia too, according to them, those companies are so willingly to sign the documents without any problems, y those sibu ppl jz so dulan n keep giving all those nonsense that they need to consult the warking laws in malaysia n so on. Troublesome.

11/3 sunny

Study study study, but i am still playing there. After all, right now we got no exam at all, that is also one of the reason that i cant put myself together. My friends said that we only got 1 exam be4 the next holiday which will be in a month time, meaning that, until that holiday, we will jz gonna hv some classes, n nthg important things too. So, i think it is still ok for me to fool around like that, but i cant afford myself to fail in any of those exams since i wont be coming back here until early of the september, meaning that i wont be around if ever i fail n then need to resit the exam. Can only resit it next yr, so better dont play too much as well, at least that is wat i told myself.

10/3 sunny

Studied for around 2 hrs in the afternoon then no more to keep going on after that. My mood, my mood, where is my old self? Maybe i am getting so damn tired studying for more than 10 yrs alrdy? Everyday, night n day need to study there in order to pass the exam n get good result. Really getting so damn tired with it, maybe that is y i dont want to do my phd anymore. But, when i figure that i will need to work for more than 30 yrs after that, that thought alone is making me so damn worried alrdy. Will i get tired afterwards?

9/3 rainny

another week has jz passed. 4 more weeks to go be4 my next holiday, think i gotta have to start to study soon enough, cant jz wait for holiday everytime like that. But i really got no mood at all right now, especially with those things to worry inside my head there. Dunno the internship thingy in sibu there is ok or not, since i got no reply from the ppl there, although last time they said the person in charge will be back on thursday. Maybe jz gonna wait for few days first then only try to call them.

8/3 rainny

Today got programming class, jz like 2 weeks be4, i dont like this subject at all, since this yr programming isnt the same as last time, last yr in my old school, our programming was more to the maths thingy, but now, it is some sort like teaching us how to use those functions in microsoft word n excel, quite boring. N some more, it was rainning today morning, if i really got that choice, for sure i will jz skip the class like that.

7/3 rainny

Raining these few days, kinda dont like this kind of weather at all. Today after school, i really dont feel like studying at all, feeling so damn tired, n i got insomia some more in the night be4, really dunno y. Feeling so damn sleepy when i was in the class, but still hv to try to concentrate, since i dont want to fail in this sem, or else later on i really dunno how to settle it. Back from school, then tried to book the flight again, n this time my card is working, i think maybe it is really because of the limit thingy, watever. Now the most important things all settled alrdy, only left going to paris to take my passport during this coming holiday.

6/3 sunny

Called the water board, n they said normally it has no problem alrdy, since i accepted the offer alrdy, but the person in charge wont be avaiable until this thursday. Ok, since they also said so, then i got nthg else to worry about alrdy, can jz go n find n book my ticket alrdy. I found it, n when i booked it in the afternoon during lunch time break, the price has alrdy gone up a bit as compared to last time, n the cheapest ticket that i found last time wasnt available anymore. Haiz haiz, is like that one lol, but if i keep waiting there again, the price will jz go up again. No choice, have to reserve the main ticket fast, whereas the domestic one, that price wont change a lot even though i book it in the last minute, n besides, i also dunno y i couldnt use my card when i was trying to reserve the airasia in the night time, maybe because it has alrdy gone to its limit since i paid directly around 700 euros to the airlines company in the morning? dunno, watever, try next time then.

5/3 rainny

Starting to rain everyday, as it is the time for the change of the season. Haiz, haiz, really hope that it wont last for long, or else i will jz hv to suffer for quite a long time since i go back to my house for lunch everyday n so on. Unlike last time, my home is 10 mins walking from my house, which is not really a wise choice if i choose to jz go out the rain everyday like that. N btw, today morning i woke up so early jz to try to call that water board, but the line was so damn lousy till the person cant even hear wat the hell i was talking about. Haiz, really getting so damn tired with those things. Need to settle it fast enough, then only i can move on to other things.

4/3 rainny

Sunday again, but still not resting enough yet. Yesterday night went sleeping so early, but i couldnt fall alseep straight away although i didnt take any nap in the afternoon. Haiz, really hate my own body system so much, alrdy felt so damn tired, but jz cant sleep properly like other ppl, wat the hell is wrong with me? Dunno, so in the end, i woke up quite late this morning again, wasting my time once more. Planning to study, but in the end, i watched movie or fb there, troublesome troublesome. Now only i know that i dont really study as much as last time, maybe because getting too damn tired for studying for so many yrs alrdy? Dunno

3/3 sunny

Planning to study, but in the end i woke up so damn late in the morning. Haiz, wasting time again, now only i know that i got left so much behind in terms of studies. Some teachers alrdy got till very far away alrdy n i still hvnt look through them at all. No wonder i cant really understand all of the things in the class, really need to try to spare some time to catch them up, or else it will jz be ugly after that, altough i dont hv any exam at the time being.

2/3 sunny

Friday night, but i cant sleep again. Haiz, cause after coming back from school, i went take nap for around 1 hr plus, i was so damn tired that time, n after that, i cant fall asleep again, my body system is jz like that one. Now need to worry for so many things, passport, flight ticket n the internship. Really dunno y those ppl so late reply my e mail one. Maybe because all are malays, that is y they need to take 2 weeks to reply it, everyday jz take money n fool around there doing nthg. Hate their styles, but it is also hard for me to call them, because of the time difference n so on. wat to do then?>

1/3 sunny

Today got a visit to a company, which means that i didnt hv any class at all. I dont really give a shit about it, but since it is obligatory for all the ppl, so i got no choice but to follow them n go. Planning to study after coming back one, but in the end, i didnt do anything at all, really no in the right mood right now, n it was the first day, i really felt so damn tired after coming back from that visit, n even didnt go for the japanese lunch with other ppl. watever

29/2 sunny

Tmr start school alrdy, but i still got so many things that i hvnt done yet. New subjects have alrdy been started 2 weeks be4 the holiday, n now only i feel like wanna catch it up. Haiz haiz, really no in the mood of studying. Many things keep bothering in my mind there, internship, project, n the flight ticket. Really dunno whether wanna come back 2 weeks earlier or not jz to be safe, but my friends all said that it should be ok for me. Maybe i will jz bet it n then come back later? If really need to come back to resit the exam, then only see wat to do? Haiz, somehow or another, really need to make my choice sooner or later, n i cant buy the ticket separately, cause the total price will be a lot more expensive comparing to the price when i buy the 2 ways ticket together. Haiz, wat to do?