23/9 sunny

Another week has jz passed, n i nearly did nthg during these 2 weeks, apart settling down few things n then trying to make some new friends in the school there. But i still prefer staying in the house there, rather than going out or fooling around with them. This weekend they are gonna to travel to another city, some sort like orientation, i amnt going because it is way too expensive. No choice, who ask me to go into a private school there, all thingy need to pay n need money one, is like that lol, nthg to complain about, even if i print out my things in school there, i also need to prepare my papers along. Wat the hell, really is shit lol..

22/9 sunny

Today i only got class in the morning, which is a good news to me, as always. Last time my timetable isnt fixed like this time. This time, every thursday only got morning class, but is 4 hrs inside the lab there. N today i jz had my first class in the lab there. Now feeling so lonely alrdy, cause need to do all those things alone, no working together in a gp like last time alrdy. The thing is that, i cant go any faster like last time, cause be4 that, i can always order other ppl to do that n do this, to save the time, but now need to do all those works alone, n then need to prepare n pass up the report as well too. Cincai, alrdy quite used to this way alrdy, so dont really matter at all. Even though dont hv any class in the afternoon, but i still need to go my school again to print out the things to send to CAf there, cause dont hv any printer in my home, so damn pity. N i never thought that i can actually renew my ic in my school there, so, it actually saved my problem, no need to go to other places to busy with that thing alrdy. NIce.

21/9 sunny

Today nthg is special too, jz that everyday got class from 8 to 6 like that. haiz, everyday english 3 hrs, it is really boring like hell. N I stil dont really have any mood to study or start to do any homework. Still holidaying, or alrdy counting for the next holiday to come around soon enough. Haiz, need to restore my habit slowly.

20/9 sunny

Today is still the same, jz that i am getting busier n busier. Now only i realise that i got some many things left behind still hvnt do yet, not even arranging my things properly here, those study thingy. Cincai, jz try to it this weekend then. But the thing that i hate the most is the internet here, really is like a shit. I thought that it is quite ok, although the speed is not really that fast like last time, but i can still stand for it. But, today i cant connect to internet at all, really dunno wat the hell has jz happened. Server like that n yet still ask us to pay monthly for
the service? U better come kill me faster, i will rather go for a package of internet n telephone to fix lines in other countries for free for around 30 euros only per month, dont really care about that amount of money alrdy, since internet is very vry important for me, not only to connect with other ppl, especially that stupid idiot, but also to settle down my things here n there.

19/9 rainny

Today was a damn rainny day. I never bought umbrella out to school in france one, cause it never rained heavily here one. Jz that, dunno these few days wat is wrong with the weather, kept on raining non stop. Even i cant get out, n even if i got out, get soaked like a chicken under the rain. So damn pity. Haiz, n today is also the day that i finally start to grab on my table to study after holidaying fro more than 2 months. But, studying jz for around 2 hrs like that, then dont wanna continue anymore, although teacher will be teaching some other new things tmr. Watever, dont care it for now, since nobody cares at this moment, all others are busy with their party every night n day. dont care

18/9 rainny

Tired tired tired. Today i went out with some of the juniors n seniors here, never thought of that we actually got around 20 malaysians here, but most of them are malays, so dont really care at all. Be4 that, i actually wanna reject alrdy, cause i really dont like to go out to town during a weekend like this, because it is the time for me to rest in my hone normally. Haiz, making myself tired only. But, no choice, since most of them will go n maybe it is the only chance for us to meet up too. Going out, n i didnt expect that today is kinda windy n cloudy n it was very cold too. So, i jz kept shiverring there, cause it isnt really my style to wear a pull be4 going out on summer. Haiz, really like to hug her at that time, making myself warmer, but she isnt here with me. Haiz, too damn pity. Nthg can be done, jz chat chat chat n then go back home to rest or gaming better than spending my time with those malays. I actually planned to start studying tonight one, but in the end, jz dont care about it. Haiz, cincai, tmr or afterwards then. Started school for 1 week alrdy, n yet i still hvnt sit down in front of my study table to study properly, most of them jz sit there n movies or online. See tmr lol.

17/9 rainny

Today my friend said he wanna come over here to cook n then eat together, n he also got ajak another senior here. That senior is 3 yrs older than me, n he only got 2 more yrs to go. We discussed a lot about our program n our salary after we finish our studies. He said, with our master, we can go to become prof in the uni in malaysia, with a starting salary of around 7k + like that, n if we get in with a phd, then the starting salary will be 10k +, which is a good news, since becoming a prof is really the most easier job in the earth here. But, jz dunno when malaysia will bankrup after we get back. He also said that, got some seniors who worked here, n their starting salary is 3k or 4k+ euros here, which is not bad at all. But the thing is that, the tax here is so damn high n if i dont want to retire here, it will be a damn waste then, since i cant get all my money back after that. But, talking about getting a phd here, jpa never offers any students to do till now. But he said that if we manage to get jpa for phd, our allowance will be 3k+ per month n then includes the working salary here which is 2k+ like that, meaning that we can actually get 5k+ like that if we extend jpa n do our phd here. Cool enough. Imagine i do my phd here for 3 yrs n each month got that kind of amount of money, i can straight away go buy a house after finishing all my studies here, no jokes. But still considering, cause it will take another 3 yrs time, n i will be damn old by that time alrdy, better finish my master first then only consider it again. N he also adviced me to take another master at the same time too, meaning getting a double master in 3 yrs lol, but that one is only available in the last yr, so nthg can be done right now. Really learned quite a lot from him tonight, but i cant write all them down now lol. Nvm, n i also went to her blog today. Haha, n jz like i said be4, if got no money at all, dont expect me to be romantic with u, cause romantic needs money. That guy is a so damn rich guy, but he is using his parents money, but i cant do so right now. Tell u wat, my parents told me last time alrdy, even during my wedding, dont expect them to sponsor me anything, cause they got 4 children, if each one of us get his money, others will also ask the same thing, n since they arent that rich, so dont expect at all. That is the reason y need to be independant, no choice. Cant blame them too, cause they also need to save money for their retirement, since they also dont expect us to give them money every month after we got our own family. Life is like this, so dont think like that dolphin there, can romantic like that n go to those expensive restaurants, since that guy isnt using his own money. Cincai, their business, no time to care for them pun.

16/9 sunny

First weekend after i jz started my school again. Really tired like shit, dont get used to it yet. N starting from next week onwards, i will be damn busy alrdy, everyday all from 8 to 6, except thursday afternoon dont hv any classes. Wat kind of planning is that? Meaning that i cant even go out to settle down my other things then? Really dulan. Haiz, but wat can i do? Since it is our system here. N tonight i also dunno y when i went out to dobi there, it reminds of the time when i was still in intec, fooling around in seniors' room there till 1 or 2 in the morning, n didnt study at all for around 1 month. Only after i went out, then only i started to feel the stress n study again. Hmm, when i was still in secondary school, always thinking about going out to other countries to study, but y now i am feeling wanna go back to sibu that much then? Miss those happy moments with my old friends back then, but time cant go back again. All left is just our memory. N i also dunno y i suddenly will go to see other ppl profile, maybe jz wanna see how they get separated. Strange enough, they are still living the same town, n then get separated. Really strange, unlike us here. Sometimes i always think that, if we really manage to stay together after i finish all my studies here, it is really really so damn sweet for us, n other ppl will also think like that too, because i have alrdy heard a lot from other friends how they got separated jz because of the distance problem, not to mention going across to other country, like my case here. So, pls, gambathe for both of us, jz hang on for such a short moment, then can always stick together alrdy. N it will also be a waste if jz let go like that, since it is hard for us to be together alrdy. Treasure it then.

15/9 sunny

Today nthg special too, but i jz know that this yr i got a group project to do. N it is actually involving about creating a new product n then sell it into the market, somesort like creating our own company n then try to sell it to other ppl. Wth, this is a management project actually. Now i know y my seniors always said they were so damn busy n y master is so damn hard to study. Hmm, but wat can i do? Jz need to spend my time more wisely n then try to prepare it since the beginning of the yr with my french friends, or else we will be dead meat after that. But right now, we didnt even know we are in which group, so wat can i do then? jz waiting again like last time. N still, the same, no internet in my own room here, so damn miserable.

14/9 sunny

Today actually nthg important in school there, jz some demo of how to putting off a fire, some sort like a security class. But, it is so pointless to get those classes, since we dont really need them in our school there. Who is stupid enough to start up a fire n then put himself in danger too? Not going to do anything too, but, since they need to get our signature, then i cant really complaint, but jz go there n hv a look. Afternoon jz for the inscription in the school there, but i still dunno when can i get my student card yet, n i need it to renew my residence card in france here too. Still many things to do right now, jz dunno how to handle them at the same time without any internet, stupid resident.

13/9 sunny

Second day of schooling day we alrdy had 4 classes n need to stay till alomost 6? It is quite a disappointment. I thought i can at least still enjoy my first two weeks of life here, but now, seem like my plan is all screwed up alrdy. But, some of them are jz revisions for us, although those teachers maybe going too fast at certain times, but nvm. Jz listen n listen, lazy to study now, wait till weekend or after settling down all those important things first, at least.

12/9 sunny

First day of schooling day, n surprisingly, we only hv 3 foreign students in my class there, 2 malaysian n 1 china ppl. Really funny, unlike last time, we got a dozens of foreign studentsin our class, n it makes us feeling not so lonely, but now, only we 3 there, really dunno wat to do n wat can i say about it. Nvm, jz get used to it, cause i am here jz for study n no more other things. N for the first day need to stay till 5 alrdy, quite a hard day, right? N the thing the most dulan me is that, i still hvnt hv my internet yet, really is bullshit. Wat are they thinking actually, dont they know that internet is the most important thing for us, the uni students? cause we do almost all of our things online, unlike last time when we were still in primary school. N now they still hvnt get it, even though i have been here for around a week alrdy? Really is damn shit, n i still hvnt call my parents yet after i coming here, i think they will be damn worried about me alrdy. Go damn it, the crous, useless for nthg, n my house isnt really that near the school too, need to walk for around 10 mins n so. Really speechless.

11/9 rainny

Today is the mooncake festival, but i dont really celebrate it here. Even though i am in sibu last time, i didnt really care it pun, so it doesnt make any difference
anymore. Hmm, thinking of my school again, tmr will be the first day of my next 3 yrs here. Really dont hv that kind of mood to go to school after 2 months holiday, but this time, it should be better, since there is another malaysian there, jz that he is a malay, not a chinese, but at least still got something. Last 2 yrs, in my yr, i was the only malaysian in my old school, making me feeling so lonely at class, nthg to talk about or to discuss, n with all other ppl, we can barely jz
talk about our school thingy, since i wasnt born in france last time, didnt know much thing here. Suffer like shit, dont hv even one true friend, now at least is
better a bit. N 3 yrs to go ah? If i am going to do my phd, meaning that i still got another 6 yrs to go, such a long time. I amnt so sure whether i can really handle it
alrdy, after all, i cant study for my whole life n trying not do start working bah? N by the time when i get out, i am alrdy 27 like that, other ppl have alrdy earned their first gold alrdy, n wat do i got? Only one paper of certificate a doctor title? Useless enough? after all, many ppl told me alrdy, when we start working, not the title or the certificate that matter, it is friendship that matters. Whenever u got into a problem n if there is someone who come n give u a hand, that will really help u a lot. So, better socialize with as many ppl as possible.

10/9 sunny

Today weather is so damn hot n yet we still went out to explore the city. Lyon is actually quite a big city, n seem like it always got all sorts of festivals n so on. But, the weather is very disturbing, n we got no choice, but to go buy some ice cream n cold drink on our halfway back then. Although is quite big, the shops here are almost the same as all other shops that we can see in other parts of france, so there is actually nthg special at all. Nvm, jz take a few walks since my arrival. Next time i dont think that i will be able to get this kind of free time to go explore it alrdy. Better stay at home n resting there.

9/9 sunny

My things have finally arrived n i jz spent few hrs to arrange them properly in my room here, but, maybe because my room here is bigger or watever, even after arranging those things in their places, there are still lots of spaces inside my house there. I think that my house here maybe is almost the same size as my house in colmar back then. Really nice, jz that when i am alone in the midnight n do nthg, i maybe will feel a little bit lonely then, too quiet alrdy. Nvm, jz get used to it, since my next three yrs will be staying here too.

9/8 sunny

My things will be arriving by tmr, so be4 that, i actually got nthg to busy with right now. Jz waiting, waiting n while trying to settle down my things with all other ppl, like sfere, jpa n so on. But, without internet here, all is jz like a bullshit, cant really do anything, unless i go to my friend there to borrow up his internet. Haiz, boring staying at home alone too, so, better jz get out n streach my legs a little bit when i am so free like right now, since when i start my class next week, it will be a total diferrent story alrdy, enjoy the last few free days then.

9/7 cloudy

Today, i finally get into my new room here, quite big, bigger than my last room in rennes, but the bathroom is a little bit smaller. Nvm, as long as i got my room then all should be ok alrdy. Then i went out to buy my things, but i cant finish buying all of them in one go, need to buy those supplies again next time, maybe tmr. Afterwards i went to my friend here to settle the ups thingy, since finally i get my exact adresse here. But for the first time, my card cant pay it, nvm, then we jz try with my friend's card. But after that, another problem occured, i cant open the code bar for the ten boxes, wth. That time i was really stunned n dunno wat to do anymore, since i cant even open the file myself, how can i expect my friend to be able to print in out later on n label them on my boxes there? Wth. Then, jz made a few calls to the UPS online help service there, n then finally got settled down. N luckily, that postman came n picked up all those things today, meaning that i will be able to get them by friday evening then. quite a relief, i can get my things in this week. Nvm, but now i am quite tired alrdy, since last night i only got 2 or 3 hrs sleep n then jz now got that kind of shock, that really made me tired like shit n headache too. Afterwards, i tried to settle down a few things here n there, n then really left no much more for me alrdy. Thx goodness, tmr i can finally hv time to clean up my house n prepare to receive my
things the next day then. N today i was also able to chat with her, although got tonnes of things to settle down that time. Nvm, cause when she goes back next few days, we wont be able to do like that anymore, since the internet in her hostel there is really like shit lol....

9/6 sunny

Today i jz arrived in my new town here, lyon. But nobody came to pick me up, so i jz did all the things by myself then. First take the train to the new area n then need to walk for around 2 hrs jz to go to my school, then to buy my insurance n my living places there. But, the thing that dulan me is that, i arrived there at 3 something, but that fellow alrdy closed the door n chased me out from the office. ZZZ . It is saying that they are closing at 4 mah, then wth? Really zz. luckily i debate with them n then they gave me a room jz to stay for one night. But, my plan is kinda huru hara, my things still with another fellow there n here i got no equipement at all, not to mention how to cook n so on. Haiz, watever. But, the thing that i dont like the most is that i made her quite diappointed this time. Saying that wont compare n yet i am still comparing with other gals, wth. I really hate this kind of myself. Although i did apologize to her, she didnt accept it, nthg i can do alrdy. Really hoping that she wont get angry for quite a long time lol. I jz hope that i wont do like to her next time anymore, or else i will dulan me myself then. Dunno u wanna accept it or not, sorry again, sincerely.

9/5 cloudy

Today is the last day that i am staying in rennes, it is kinda hard for me to believe that i have actually stayed here for 2 yrs alrdy, time really does fly, right? N jz to look back, i still remember the first day when we have jz arrived in france, everyone was jz busy searching for the famous effiel tower, we didnt know anything about france that time beside that tower. Now, everything has changed, n everyone isnt the same anymore n we dont stay in the same place anymore. Hmm, three years gone alrdy, meaning that another three years for me to go on be4 i actually finish my studies here. But, today, i amnt gonna talk about those things with u, I also dunno y that i am comparing her with other gals. She is my first gf, right? Whom can i compare her with? Then, how the hell i can do like that then? Dont get it. Haiz, n now i jz notice that i am actually bullying her a lot, everyday n eveytime i am jz making fun of her, n while she is making fun of me jz for a tiny little thingy, i will jz get angry alrdy. Since when i become so impatient jz like her alrdy? Really no idea at all. Better control myself a little bit next time n try not to bully her so much then.

9/4 rainny

Today jz went to junior's house n chit chatting with her. Nthg special actually, jz kinda got the feeling of coming here the first yr n did my prepa last time, such a nostalgic. Time really does fly, now i will need to start my forth yr of studies in france alrdy. N after three more yr, i will finish all my studies alrdy, hopefully. I dont think that i am gonna continue with my phd, since it will take me another three yr time n i also cant leave her alone there, can i? But, she is the one who is actually planning on to do her master for another two yrs. I really dunno her, up to her to decide.

9/3 sunny

Jz waiting for the time to go n come out with nthg actually. zzz. not really my style, but i cant do anything about it. Wtf. without my exact adresse there, i cant settle a single things. Nvm, i think i will jz settle them down when i get there next time. Really hate french ppl doing styles, none of my business, u go ask other ppl, bla bla, lots of excuses. watever, jz get used to it. I am here to study, no more other things alrdy.

9/2 sunny

Today i am kinda frustrated because that fellow in the residence there still didnt want to give me my room number. Wtf, he promised to give me my room number last time n now he is arguing with me there? Really speechless with him. Fine, nvm, i will get there alone n settle it on my own n then ask my friend here to send me my things afterwards. Fine, the same result, jz that need to trouble lots of ppl again n it will be a late a few days from the expected day for me to take my things then.

9/1 sunny

Things are getting complicated as i am still waiting for my reply there. I really dunno wat to do anymore, cause they still hvnt reply my e mail regarding my room number, so how the hell am i supposed to move my things then? without my exact adresse? wth. really hate those french ppl, when holidaying then jz dont really care at all, unless it is the world end. if tmr still cant get any reply, then i will hv to figure somehting out, cause my train wont wait for me.

8/31 sunny

today is actually malaysia's independance day, but i dont really care about it. first thing, i am now in france, not to my concern, right? second thing, it is about the racism thingy in malaysia. Watever, jz like a normal day n i have been waiting waiting for these long days. Only till tmr then only i getto know my room number, meaning that i can only settle the ups thingy starting from tmr, hope time is really on my side then.

8/30 sunny

Nthg has come out today, jz that, i spent most of my time accompanying her n chatting with her. It is the only thing i can do for right now, since we are so free at the same time, still having holiday. when the holiday finally ends, then only we will need to try to spare out real precious time to keep each other company. hmm. nvm, that time we will figure something out, cause as far as i know, my next yr should be a little bit easier than last yr, but i amnt sure the same thing for her, since she doesnt really know how to arrange her time at all. Hope that she can cope up with it then.

8/29 sunny

Today jz like usual, we went out to buy things n then we came back to settle those things. sylvie has finally replied my msg, saying that i can jz go to my new school there n study without any problems, she will settle our tuition fee with jpa, but the hostel thingy is jz like that. need to wait till 1 sept to get my room number n then only i can go for the ups website there to fill in all those details for moving, quite troublesome.

8/28 sunny

That fellow is back but it is jz like usual for me, since nthg has changed. Now still waiting for them to reply my e mail n i cant actually do anything about it. N today is also our first anniversary day. Hmm, alrdy 1 yr, didnt notice it all. last yr i was in the klia airport when she sent me the msg,
saying that we would be in a relationship, quite a yr then. it did happen a lot of things between us back then, we quarrelled, then we get back together n so on n so on. Hmm, i hope we can still become together for the next time n hope that she can stand for it when i amnt beside her for this one yr time then.

8/27 cloudy

Tmr that fellow will be back to rennes alrdy. n after tmr is the due day that i must start to settle those things alrdy, cant wait for anymore longer. Need to send e mail to slyvie to inform her about my new school n also try to get my new adresse n lyon too. wat can i do then? jz wait wait wait, i
cant help it. haiz.

8/26 sunny

I had been back for about a week, n yet i came out with nthg till now. Really hate those kind of feeling of waiting.Hmm, now still waiting for my adresse exact at lyon there, so i cant do anything about it lol. haiz, jz wait wait wait. other ppl are still holidaying, especially those who are studying in uk, so damn jealous about them. summer break for around 4 months. while for me, have to go back earlier to settle those things, really is a waste of my time. I prefer to use those time to spend with my family or with her. Wat to do then?

8/25 rainny

Nthg to do today too, except for some movies. Hmm, that fellow is coming back today too, meaning that i only got few days left to be alone here. I tried to settle some problems with the ups, but since i dunno where do i live exactly next yr, so i cant really solve it. Still the same, waiting for other people to reply my e mail, to give me more details about it. Hopefully i can settle it within these few days then, or else i will jz sit in the house n come out with nthg at all, too boring.

8/24 sunny

Today, nthg special. I jz stayed at home n did nthg, still waiting for my reply. After all, i still got 2 more weeks to go be4 going to the new town. Dunno wat to do. N we got quarrelled again. This time is because i said she is only interested in my money only. Haiz, playing too much, i guess. But,

sometimes she is also like that, like to play a lot n didnt even care about my feeling at all. Watever. Jz hope that she didnt get angry, i was jz playing around with her only.