On this valentine's day, i jz wanna grab this opportunity to make a post here. I alrdy cant be ur side there to celebrate it with u, and if i dont ever do something to pay u back, sure u will feel kinda down or disappointed. Ah ah, dont try to comfort me by saying that it is really nthg, but actually, deep down inside ur heart, u do really care, right? Every gal will jz care about this day, not to mention i am ur first bf too. So, where to start then? Kinda lost here. Actually, u jz cant say urself that u dont hv a single good point inside of u. If u think carefully, u sure hv some good points about urself. N only till now that i know that, actually u do care a lot about our thingy, but u jz pretend that u dont really care much, cause maybe the most important thing is, u wanna hv more freedom on urself. But i also cant deny that the fact that u dont really care much is because u hv faith in me n trust me that ever do something to break our promise or relationship. Sagittarus ppl actually believes anyone very easily, that is the main reason y they get hurt n hurt other ppl very easily. Still remember last time how i told u? Dont believe anyone so easily, time can prove u a lot of things one n tell u who are trusthworthy n who arent. Now, i still give u back this advice. Dont ever trust anyone so easily, neither me, jz leave to time to tell u who can be trusted n who cant. I didnt mean that i want u not to trust every single word of me anymore, but i jz wanna protect u as long as i can, protect u from getting hurt because u can trust some one so easily. Protect u means protect u from any harm either it is from other ppl or from me, that is my promise. I will keep that promise n i only want u to trust me after i do so. Jz dont want u to get hurt anymore.
We actually have been together for more than 5 months n i think a lot of friends know about our thingy alrdy. Hope that they dont bully u too much because of that. N only now i notice that actually i did nthg for u n yet u alrdy made a video for me last time. I still kept it there in my dekstop here n watch it over n over again when i am free n when i miss u or feel like wanna hug u. Although u didnt put any song in there, it is still very nice. I am so sure that ur face sure looked so damn xing fu n happy when u made it last time. Haha. Kinda like to see ur face like that, at least i know that u are actually very happy when we are together. U dont feel any stress or tension with me, jz feel very relieved n enjoy. That is all i want to see in ur face there. When u feel shy or ur face turns red, i am so sure that u will look very cute that time. Haha. N that time i jz wanna hug u very tighty in my chest n dont ever wanna let u go. Haha. That was for ur video, but the photos that u took in sg, i am so sure that those one with a heart in it or those one with i love u are actually for me one. U dont deny it there. Haha. I really feel so happy when the first time i saw them. I also know that u actually wanna tell me those words alrdy, but u jz feel shy n those words are very hard to come out from ur mouth. Nvm, jz take ur time n if still cant, jz forget it because i know wat do u really wanna say to me deep down in ur heart there. N for that post during cny, I never expected that u would actually write about me there, even though i am the last one there. Haha. U always feel very shy about letting other ppl knowing about us, so that time i wasnt expecting to see my part even at the last part of the post. I thought u would jz write about ur parents, ur cousins, n then ur friends only. N for my part, u jz keep in down inside ur heart there again. But, u actually put it down there . Feel very happy with it. I wanna like that post a long time alrdy, but thinking about the consequence that all ur friends would know about our thingy n then they would start bullying u afterwards, so i jz did nthg lol. If u really dont feel anything about it, i think we can jz let anyone know about it alrdy, but for this question, i jz wanna know how u think about it, cause u are my gf n i cant decide all thingy myself alone. See? Jz cincai mention, i alrdy cant think about those thingy that u actually did for me alrdy. But, i think that i hardly did anything for u, even till now. Too far? Distance is jz an excuse. Hmm. But at least i think that u are actually very enjoy the way i sayang u n care about u now n that is the most important thingy. Still remember wat i say last time? My style is, i dont really like keep bluffing there, but i will prove it to u n by that time, u can decide whether wanna trust me or not. N over the things that u change because of me n for every single 'good night' from u in the early morning, i really really wanna say thx to u. Jz keep it this way will be enough for me alrdy, n in return, i will sayang u hug u n make u feel xing fu till wanna die. Hahah.
err...wat to say anymore? I plan to write the longest post in my blog jz for today this special occassion. Hmm...Although we keep fighting everytime, n make u got insomia after that, we still hang up to now. Really wanna thx you although we maybe wont be together in the future, jz like u say, but i jz wanna say thx you to u n cherish everyday when hanging out with u. Sometimes i feel very funny too, cause jz few nights be4 we got fighting again n i said out some words till make u have insomia that time. I said i will try not to care u so much anymore cause it will make me feel very hurt n sad everytimes. But i think it isnt really the best solution. The best one will be not to care much about ur bad behaviours, like talking without thinking or without considering other's feeling or watever. I think that is the best for us. Jz try not to care much about ur bad attitudes n jz always think about the good things inside u urself. By that, sure we wont be fighting as often as now. Jz accept u being like that cause everyone sure got nice attitudes that u like so much n bad attitudes that u dont really like at all. N if we continue to be so stupid, trying to find the best person who hv only good attitudes n can suit u in every ways, then i really wanna feel sorry for u, because u will never be able to find someone like that. There is jz something in every person that u dont like at all, but wat can u do is to accept him or her
because u love him or her n try to cover all those things by ur love towards him or her. That is the only way for a relationship to be able sustain till the end of our life. Jz appreciate n cherish every way the person is n not to critik her or him for being so n asking her or him to change for u, that is jz being selfish. I think i still a long way to go be4 i can truly be mature enough to protect u in the future. Jz wait for me n i will become more mature next time, ok, bao bei? But that time u also very funny lol, can really sacrificed urself so much, still laughing there n replied my msg like that. I think for most of the gals, after receiving that kind of msg will alrdy cry till wanna kill me. Really speechless on ur spirit, always trying sacrifice urself for everyone, especially the one that u love cause u dont want them to feel sad. So, in order to do so, u jz pretend to be happy although i know that, that time sure u really really really felt like wanna cry alrdy. Haiz. Jz wanna say sorry once again although it isnt a nice one to say it out on valentine's day. U are really tough enough to stand that thingy n can even study after that till 4 like that cause u also know that u wont be able to sleep that night. haiz. haiz. Actually u do care a lot deep down inside ur heart, right? Altough everytime u jz say dont really care, dont really care much one. Ppl who really do care a lot will try to do anything to pretend that they dont really care jz dont want other ppl to see how care they really are n how weak or how sad are they. N i also know that gals' first love are always so true one n so sincere one. Really feel sorry everytimes will jz make u feel so sad n cry there.
This time, although i cant manage to send u those things, because i am afraid that they wont be able to reach u there n then later cant see one, but at least i still manage to send u a postcard because i really really dont want u to feel very lonely during this special day. Alrdy cant being around u the whole day, at least i can still come out with something so that u can feel my presence n a little bit of an quan gan. So, i jz sent u that postcard to recompense it. N i also feel
very funny about the postbox system in ur school there. ahahah. Not supposed that u ppl should hv one box for each n different room? Y need to be troublesome to collect the whole things together n then to distribute the thingy according to alphabet? So noob. hahaha. Maybe dont hv enough money, so can hv a separate postbox for every separate room? dunno, maybe. haha. watever. Jz that, if like that, then i wont be able to give u any surprise anymore, cause i will need to tell u everytime i send u something, jz to make sure that u receive it in the end. If like this, then no more fun alrdy. haiz, sad sad. Watever. N for those 2 thingy, next time when we meet up, then i will hand them over to u, ok? N one more thing, i jz wanna say again, dont feel that u urself dont hv any good points anymore, jz hv some confidence in urself, u do actually very well as a gf alrdy, jz that maybe u didnt even notice it. So, jz continue be urself, ok? N for that question about hanging together in the future one, that question, i also know that u cant promise me anything, cause u are afraid that u wont be able to do it in the end n later make me get hurt n feel sad. Jz take ur time n dont think too much about it, n cherish everyday when we are still together. Let time to decides it then n u will know the answer in future. I think i got nthg more to say alrdy, n this post should be very far long enough alrdy. So this together with the postcard is my valentine's gift for u at least for now then. The doll that i showed u last time, that one will be urs when we meet up next time then. Love u and miss u.
We actually have been together for more than 5 months n i think a lot of friends know about our thingy alrdy. Hope that they dont bully u too much because of that. N only now i notice that actually i did nthg for u n yet u alrdy made a video for me last time. I still kept it there in my dekstop here n watch it over n over again when i am free n when i miss u or feel like wanna hug u. Although u didnt put any song in there, it is still very nice. I am so sure that ur face sure looked so damn xing fu n happy when u made it last time. Haha. Kinda like to see ur face like that, at least i know that u are actually very happy when we are together. U dont feel any stress or tension with me, jz feel very relieved n enjoy. That is all i want to see in ur face there. When u feel shy or ur face turns red, i am so sure that u will look very cute that time. Haha. N that time i jz wanna hug u very tighty in my chest n dont ever wanna let u go. Haha. That was for ur video, but the photos that u took in sg, i am so sure that those one with a heart in it or those one with i love u are actually for me one. U dont deny it there. Haha. I really feel so happy when the first time i saw them. I also know that u actually wanna tell me those words alrdy, but u jz feel shy n those words are very hard to come out from ur mouth. Nvm, jz take ur time n if still cant, jz forget it because i know wat do u really wanna say to me deep down in ur heart there. N for that post during cny, I never expected that u would actually write about me there, even though i am the last one there. Haha. U always feel very shy about letting other ppl knowing about us, so that time i wasnt expecting to see my part even at the last part of the post. I thought u would jz write about ur parents, ur cousins, n then ur friends only. N for my part, u jz keep in down inside ur heart there again. But, u actually put it down there . Feel very happy with it. I wanna like that post a long time alrdy, but thinking about the consequence that all ur friends would know about our thingy n then they would start bullying u afterwards, so i jz did nthg lol. If u really dont feel anything about it, i think we can jz let anyone know about it alrdy, but for this question, i jz wanna know how u think about it, cause u are my gf n i cant decide all thingy myself alone. See? Jz cincai mention, i alrdy cant think about those thingy that u actually did for me alrdy. But, i think that i hardly did anything for u, even till now. Too far? Distance is jz an excuse. Hmm. But at least i think that u are actually very enjoy the way i sayang u n care about u now n that is the most important thingy. Still remember wat i say last time? My style is, i dont really like keep bluffing there, but i will prove it to u n by that time, u can decide whether wanna trust me or not. N over the things that u change because of me n for every single 'good night' from u in the early morning, i really really wanna say thx to u. Jz keep it this way will be enough for me alrdy, n in return, i will sayang u hug u n make u feel xing fu till wanna die. Hahah.
err...wat to say anymore? I plan to write the longest post in my blog jz for today this special occassion. Hmm...Although we keep fighting everytime, n make u got insomia after that, we still hang up to now. Really wanna thx you although we maybe wont be together in the future, jz like u say, but i jz wanna say thx you to u n cherish everyday when hanging out with u. Sometimes i feel very funny too, cause jz few nights be4 we got fighting again n i said out some words till make u have insomia that time. I said i will try not to care u so much anymore cause it will make me feel very hurt n sad everytimes. But i think it isnt really the best solution. The best one will be not to care much about ur bad behaviours, like talking without thinking or without considering other's feeling or watever. I think that is the best for us. Jz try not to care much about ur bad attitudes n jz always think about the good things inside u urself. By that, sure we wont be fighting as often as now. Jz accept u being like that cause everyone sure got nice attitudes that u like so much n bad attitudes that u dont really like at all. N if we continue to be so stupid, trying to find the best person who hv only good attitudes n can suit u in every ways, then i really wanna feel sorry for u, because u will never be able to find someone like that. There is jz something in every person that u dont like at all, but wat can u do is to accept him or her
because u love him or her n try to cover all those things by ur love towards him or her. That is the only way for a relationship to be able sustain till the end of our life. Jz appreciate n cherish every way the person is n not to critik her or him for being so n asking her or him to change for u, that is jz being selfish. I think i still a long way to go be4 i can truly be mature enough to protect u in the future. Jz wait for me n i will become more mature next time, ok, bao bei? But that time u also very funny lol, can really sacrificed urself so much, still laughing there n replied my msg like that. I think for most of the gals, after receiving that kind of msg will alrdy cry till wanna kill me. Really speechless on ur spirit, always trying sacrifice urself for everyone, especially the one that u love cause u dont want them to feel sad. So, in order to do so, u jz pretend to be happy although i know that, that time sure u really really really felt like wanna cry alrdy. Haiz. Jz wanna say sorry once again although it isnt a nice one to say it out on valentine's day. U are really tough enough to stand that thingy n can even study after that till 4 like that cause u also know that u wont be able to sleep that night. haiz. haiz. Actually u do care a lot deep down inside ur heart, right? Altough everytime u jz say dont really care, dont really care much one. Ppl who really do care a lot will try to do anything to pretend that they dont really care jz dont want other ppl to see how care they really are n how weak or how sad are they. N i also know that gals' first love are always so true one n so sincere one. Really feel sorry everytimes will jz make u feel so sad n cry there.
This time, although i cant manage to send u those things, because i am afraid that they wont be able to reach u there n then later cant see one, but at least i still manage to send u a postcard because i really really dont want u to feel very lonely during this special day. Alrdy cant being around u the whole day, at least i can still come out with something so that u can feel my presence n a little bit of an quan gan. So, i jz sent u that postcard to recompense it. N i also feel
very funny about the postbox system in ur school there. ahahah. Not supposed that u ppl should hv one box for each n different room? Y need to be troublesome to collect the whole things together n then to distribute the thingy according to alphabet? So noob. hahaha. Maybe dont hv enough money, so can hv a separate postbox for every separate room? dunno, maybe. haha. watever. Jz that, if like that, then i wont be able to give u any surprise anymore, cause i will need to tell u everytime i send u something, jz to make sure that u receive it in the end. If like this, then no more fun alrdy. haiz, sad sad. Watever. N for those 2 thingy, next time when we meet up, then i will hand them over to u, ok? N one more thing, i jz wanna say again, dont feel that u urself dont hv any good points anymore, jz hv some confidence in urself, u do actually very well as a gf alrdy, jz that maybe u didnt even notice it. So, jz continue be urself, ok? N for that question about hanging together in the future one, that question, i also know that u cant promise me anything, cause u are afraid that u wont be able to do it in the end n later make me get hurt n feel sad. Jz take ur time n dont think too much about it, n cherish everyday when we are still together. Let time to decides it then n u will know the answer in future. I think i got nthg more to say alrdy, n this post should be very far long enough alrdy. So this together with the postcard is my valentine's gift for u at least for now then. The doll that i showed u last time, that one will be urs when we meet up next time then. Love u and miss u.
