30/12 rainny

Wao, really hard to study during holiday. Every single hr sure will feel so damn boring or sleepy, n then when i go lay down on my bed there, i will jz fall alseep for 1 hr plus like that, wasting time like that. But i also wanna enjoy the few days left be4 holiday too, cause later on wont hv so much time for me to rest or to enjoy myself. So, study or not leh?

29/12 rainny

Finally finished that project thingy, but then, still need to spend some time to do a summary n finish the power point too. Now, better focus on other subjects n rush over those things as much as i can. Still got 5 days left, but, seeing the numbers of subjects that i got, i really dont think that i manage to finish all of them. Watever, even after open school, i still got few days which are quite free to finish them off.

28/12 cloudy

Study study study study, better start studying now, or else later on i dont hv much time left for other thingy alrdy. Dont forget that i still need to go out n do the survey thingy, n then need spare some time to go n cut my hairs too. Around 6 subjects that i need to study be4 this holiday ends, 1 project thingy, n 1 presentation. Hope that i got enough time left for all of it.

27/12 cloudy

Staying at home n trying to get my things done then. Now only i know that 1 week had alrdy passed n i still hvnt done anything yet. N i really got a few sujects that need to catch up for the final in january. Hope that i can manage to finish them all within a week time then, or else, i will be dommed. N they still asked me whether wanna go to paris for the new yr or not, since they alrdy booked the hotel for us together last time, n besides they need to pay back my money too. But, i dont think that i will be going, cause i wont hv much time left if i go to paris like that. Stay at home n study then, at least that is wat i planned.

26/12 cloudy

Nthg special, jz like the other day. Still playing n hvnt start studying yet. Watever, dont care, holiday is like that one. N for other ppl, they mostly are enjoying travelling at the time being. This yr jz stay at home n save my money lol.

25/12 sunny

Christmas n lonely at home doing nthg but playing game. Haiz, kinda used to it alrdy, cause i dont really care christmas pun. Nobody will celebrate with me too. Nvm lol, nthg important too.

24/12 sunny

Christmas eve n i was alone in my home too. Nvm, feel nthg too, even if i am alone during cny, i also wont feel anything, cause alrdy 3 yrs been like that, kinda used to it alrdy. The older u become, the less attractive those festivals become, n besides, u will also getting busier till forget all those unneccesay thingy. Cincai, jz let the time passes. N this yr the same too, will be having my final exams during cny .

23/12 sunny

Staying the whole day at home gaming there. Or else, nthg to do too, kinda lazy to study or do my things. Watever, hope my mood will come back after a few days later. N now it is getting colder n colder everyday, but still not as cold as the yr be4, lucky enough, or else i will be so damned.

22/12 rainny

Today woke up at 4 something jz in order to catch an early train to go to paris to settle those thingy. N that malaysia embassy isnt easy to find too, such a small building in a so damn small road, n i took me around an hr kept asking other ppl around jz in order to find it. But, i did finish all those thingy earlier, so i jz changed my ticket n went back home earlier too. N jz as i expected, they cant give me a temporary passport or watsoever, cause i amnt going back to malaysia, meaning that i wont be going anywhere during thise christmas holiday.

21/12 rainny

Raining the whole day. I got no choice, but hv to go out under the rain to go take my train ticket n then settle down n few little things. Actually, i can go n take my train ticket tmr morning too, but, jz to be sure, cause those machines sometimes jz wont work too, better do it today. Tmr need to go up to paris to embassy there n get a new passport. I dont think that they got any other solutions for my lost passport alrdy.

20/12 snow

Finally holiday, n this time i think i will jz stay at home n rest up. Now when i think back, seem like it is a wise choice not going to anywhere during this holiday, cause after that i got tonnes of final waiting for me there, so better spend few days playing games, then start studying alrdy. At least that is wat i plan for the time being, n it depends on my mood too.

19/12 rainny

Same as usual, busy the whole day there. Got my test result back, good enough, as i expected last time, since the question paper wasnt hard at all. N then lab the whole afternoon, while some other ppl didnt hv anything at all, depending on their time table. Watever, cause they need to do it sooner or later too, maybe after the holiday n so on. Nthg else special, n jz dont care about that passport thingy anymore, cause it wont change a single thing anymore.

18/12 cloudy

Most ppl are on holiday alrdy, n yet tmr i still got class. Haiz, really so damn pity, n their hooliday is longer than mine this time too. I really dunno y my school has got a timetable like that one. N, we will need to finish later than them in the end of yr later on, wtf? Wat is going on with those stupid timetable, seem like i am much more busier than any other ppl, not to mention those who are in malaysia, seem like always on holiday one. Although still got class, i am actually on holiday mood alrdy, really feel so damn tired with every damn weekends last time, full of lab reports n then projects thingy together with exam, n some more with that stupid passport missing thingy. Dont think that i will be able to go travelling this time, so, jz need to waste 300 euros for nthg n stay at home then.

17/12 rainny

Went to police station once again, n this time finally get it done. But, jz for sure, i called those airline companies again, n this time they said i cant go n take my flight, cause i amnt french n i dont hv their identity card at all, wat we hv here is jz the temporary resident card, not the permanent one, so did counted at all. So that is the difference between a real resident n a pendatang asing, now only i taste it. Hmm, no comments at all, cause this is the same in every single country too, even in malaysia. Now i am really getting so damn tired with this shit, n i alrdy expecting the worst alrdy, wasting all my tickets for around 300 euros for nthg n then need to waste another few hundreds euros to redo the new passport. It is like that one, when outside the country, if u dont hv money, then u are as good as dead alrdy, this is the world we are living in.

16/12 rainny

Haiz, still got 2 more days left next week be4 i am really on holiday. Some other ppl are alrdy on holiday, n their holiday is longer than mine, really not fair enough. Haiz, wat to do? Dont talk about holiday, cause now i amnt really in that mood alrdy, with my passport missing like that. I dont remember that i dropped it somewhere when i went outside last time, n i wont be that stupid enough to throw it either, so where the hell did it go? Really no idea at all, not in my house for sure, cause i had alrdy searched for it for many times alrdy, no a single sign at all. haiz, trouble trouble

15/12 rainny

After today, i will be quite free alrdy. Today i went to police station there again, but they asked me to come again another time cause there was too many ppl waiting there, n if i had waited there, i would need at least 2 hrs in order to finish the things. Haiz, Nvm, go again on saturday morning or watever, try to see first. Still got few things left to do be4 holiday, at least need to finish prepare the presentation thingy, or else after i coming back, i will be quite late alrdy.

14/12 sunny

Thought that tonight i can actually go out to the police station n make a police report one, but in the end, i hardly even have enough time to finish up all my homework for tmr. Haiz, y is it that time is always not enough for me? N timetable is so damn packed too. Really need to spare out some time to go to police station tmr afternoon after class, or else, dont expect to go travelling during holiday later.

13/12 sunny

Today got another exam again, the last one be4 christmas holiday. N this one is jz an easy one, so jz study study a bit then can do alrdy. N then after class, i called the airline company, n for the one from paris to daemark, they allow me to go, but i jz need to get the report document from the polices there, watever, since i need it too in order to do a new passport. N for the second one, i dunno yet, cause they only accept calls from 8 to 6, by the time i was back home, it was more than 6 alrdy. haiz, tmr or after that then.

12/12 rainny

I called to all those mairies n none of them had seen my passport, so only one choice left, get to do the new one, n then i called the person who is in charge for the jpa students n then he said, i only got 1 choice, to do a new one in malaysia embassy in paris, but i wont be able to get it within 4 or 5 months. So, it doesnt change a single thing, cause need to wait for so long time. But, as for the trip, he said that, most probably we dont need our passport to enter those countries because they are inside one specific zone n we can jz use our ic to pass through it. I long know about it too, but sometimes those bastards in the airport jz wanna to dulan u n keep checking our passport there. So, in order to confirm that, i need to call those airlines companies again. Haiz, troublesome

11/12 sunny

Haiz, wat the hell am i still expecting there? Still keep looking for it in my house, although i long time alrdy know that it wont be there anymore. N i found something on the internet too, if wanna remake a new one, it will take months like that, that means i need to throw away all those tickets alrdy, wasting me so much money for nthg, n then need to spend another few hundreds to make a new one too. Really dulan n dulan.

10/12 sunny

Today need to spare my precious time to go to police station jz to report this case, n as i expected, they will say they dunno, or send u to other places to see whether got ppl found it n put it there or not. So, the last choice is contacting the malaysia embassy in france n do a new one then, but the problem is dunno how long will it take n as for price, even if is damn expensive, i also dont hv any choice alrdy. After all, i alrdy expected the worse since the moment i cant find it in the usual place in my home there. Haiz, every yr when i plan to save on some money sure will come out with those bullshit things to waste away tonnes of my money, last time is the train ticket n some internet bullshit thingy. This time is this passport. zzz..getting so damn tired with those bullshit.

9/12 sunny

looking through my whole house n still cant find it. As i expected, if it isnt there, then sure it is gone alrdy, cause i wont cincai put those important things or throw them here n there one. Haiz, now i really dunno where n when did i lose it. Outside the streets when walking? Or slipping from my jacket when i took it off? So many possibilities n my friend said even if i go to police station, they will jz ask u to go look for it again, useless for nthg one. So, the other option is to call embassy n ask them to do a new one for me again. N hell i know it will need how much time to finish it again, last time in malaysia needs 1 month time, now in france, better prepare for the worst case. dulan

8/12 sunny

I thought that i would be going to school jz for sightseeing a while n take a few contacts for my interships next time. But acording to my friends here, they said that they wont even bother u at all, cause they are really looking for someone who wanna do a serious job, but not jz for some useless interships for few months only. So, in the end, it was so damn useless, so i would rather spend my day to go get my ic then. N only today that i realized that i lost my passport. I am so damn sure that i had it in my home last time, but tonight when i went n try to find it, it wasnt there anymore, i kept looking the whole places, n yet still cant find it. zzzzz dulan till gao gao, if i really lost it, i really dunno whether i can still go travelling or not during christmas...zzz

7/12 sunny

Tired tired, luckily tmr is some useless day, then i can stay at home n rest up for a day. But, i think that i maybe will go n try to get my ic, cause i have been waiting for almost 2 months alrdy, n yet i dont hv any news about it at all. Haiz, really dulan cause every yr need to renew it, n it will be taking so damn long in order to get it. zzz, wat for then?

6/12 sunny

Today exam was jz like usual, every time sure got some questions that i dunno how to answer. Haiz, dont really care about it after exam cause it wont change anything alrdy. N today i got my organic test paper back too. I got a quite nice mark too, so watever, dont really care, as long as i passed it. N tmr got another meeting after school again, really will be so damn tired n wasting my time. But, no choice, have to do it sooner or later.

5/12 sunny

Time during weekends passes real fast, i hardly have any time to stop down to think about other things else. Watever, good too, keep me busy then i wont even realise how fast time flies n then can go back n sayang her again. Hmm. Tmr got another exam again, n i need to spend the whole night to finally finish the whole subject. N after tmr, i got another thing to do for the project, haiz, really is so damn busy.

4/12 sunny

Sitting almost the whole day in front of my study table, n yet i still hvnt finish all the things. Haiz, really how much work do i need to do then? Preparing the lab, the exam n then the presentation n the project. Haiz, stupid timetable, so packed for wat?

3/12 rainny

Study study study, y i hardly have any free time to do anything that i like, or jz to go out to walk a while? Every weekend need to prepare for the exam the next week, n then the lab reports too, n if worse, got some stupid presentations n project thingy too. Haiz, my life is so damn busy. But, even i study there for the whole day, i still hvnt finish the whole subject at all. Haiz, time isnt really enough.

2/12 rainny

Haiz, really get so damn bored with this kind of weather, raining the whole day there, making it very troublesome for me to go back to eat n go to school afterwards. But this weather will continue for a few days since now we are switching from autumn to winter, so it is kinda normal. Now really miss my home in the town be4, my school was jz beside my home, even if it was raining heavily, i dont really care about it too, cause jz need a few steps then i would be at my home alrdy, but now it is a total different story.

1/12 sunny

Today after coming back from lab, i also dunno y i can fall alseep for moe than 2 hrs, making me feel quite headache after waking up from my nap. Maybe i dont hv enough sleep everyday, making my body wanna to compensate it n then sleep for so long then? Dunno, no idea. But, in the night, i still feel quite tired while i was busying with my work there. Haiz. Wat happened to me oh? hmmm, seem like i need to rest for a while alrdy.

30/11 cloudy

Tired tired tired, after coming abck the lab, i felt so damn tired, but i didnt really hv any time to go take nap or watsoever. N tmr i still got another lab, n this time is orga chem lab, the one that i hate the most. But still need to go n do all the thingy. Now i really need a few days holidays jz to take a rest myself. So damn tired,

29/11 cloudy

Nthg special today, jz like other normal days, Exam was jz like that, but in the end we didnt hv our meeting, cause our teacher didnt answer our e mail, so jz left it like that for the time being. Otherwise, dont think that today got anything special at all, but still, feel like quite busy cause got so many things waiting for me to settle down one. Haiz, dont really hv much time for resting. And, jz now, suddenly felt like wanna go n play my guitar again, cause it had been more than 1 yr that i didnt touch it at all. Dunno wat happened to me n where did my interest go, maybe i feel too boring n lonely playing alone? Haiz, trying to sneak out some time for it next time then.

28/11 cloudy

Every monday jz dont hv any mood to go to school n feel so damn tired at the same time too. Haiz, although still left 3 more weeks, i really hate going to school n listening to those useless thingy for now. N tmr got another japanese test n another meeting for the project after the class, from 6 to dunno when, which means that tonight i need to find something in order to discuss with other ppl tmr. Really hate that project so much, cause it is so damn useless. But no choice, hv to do it too.

27/11 cloudy

Time isnt really enough for me. Even though i kept studying studying n studying, i still cant keep up with wat the teachers taught us. N besides, stil need to spend time for the lab reports thingy, n then the research for the project thingy, all this thingy really makes me headache like wat. Still left 3 more weeks be4 christmas, but i cant really rest during christmas holiday too, cause i will be going to other countries. HAiz, should hv jz stayed at home n sleeping to recharge my battery.

26/11 cloudy

Study study study. But, i dont think i study quite a lot today lol. Most of the time also dunno wat i did, jz went online n find something to see to pass the time. Hmm, tmr they got another party thingy, but i dont think i am gonna fool around with them, cause i need to prepare my lab thingy n so on. N besides, it is getting colder n colder, really feel like quite lazy to go out anymore.

25/11 cloudy

Weekend again, but cant really enjoy it, cause still left so many things to do, n again, next week got japanese exam once again. Haiz, really need to spend a lot of time on the new language. Sometime really dunno whether i am making the right choice or not, chosing to take another new lanaguage, while i can always choose to hv an easier life here. Haiz, watever, wat is done is done.

24/11 cloudy

Today after my lab, we got some sort of a group discussion for the project thingy. Actually, i didnt really understand wat they were talking there n wat the hell should i do next. Haiz, nvm, next time ask them again. N the thing is that i had never do such a project be4, how do i know wat they really need to find n write on the reports there? So, after discussion n by the time when i get back, it was quite late alrdy, but i still went out to settle my things as i planned be4. N i was really getting annoyed, cause they closed today, making me wasting my time to get out there n it was so damn cold at the same time too. Luckily i still manage to settle down a few things, now jz left the most important thing stuck there, need to go another time sooner or later.

23/11 sunny

Although today afternoon dont hv any class at all, but i still need to go out to buy my things, n tmr need to go out to settle down something as well. Haiz, really hate going out in this kind of weather n wasting my time too. But wat to do, got some problems there, i cant get my money for the house rental there, sure need to claim back from them, or else every month i need to pay the full house rent 400 euros to them? so expensive lol. haiz.

22/11 sunny

Now my friends jz told me wat to do for the project thingy n now only i notice that i still got so many things to do, especially need to spend lots of time for serching those thingy on internet. Hmm, still hv to do it although i dont really like it, no choice, so better spend my time n finish those troublesome thingy earlier then.

21/11 sunny

Tmr i got exams, n today i jz had morning class, wat a nice day to do some revision for the exam, right? But, in the end, i went study other subjects, cause i had been revising it throughout the whole weekend, n i think that is more than enough alrdy, so today, jz spent some time for other subjects then. N this week i will be quite free too, but i dont think i am jz gonna n play there, since i still a project to do at the time being. Better spend my time going online n find something useful there.

20/11 sunny

Now jz noticed that i didnt revise my orga chem for such a long time alrdy, so better catch it up while i am still free now. N now i actually got that feeling that my timetable is more free than the last yr one, jz that, i got more things to settle down at my home, such as homeworks n research thingy. hmm, cincai, dont really care, jz used to it n then pass my exams then all will be done alrdy.

19/11 rainny

Study study for the whole day, then finally at night time went n play my games there. Lazy to start a new game, cause later on i will get addicted to it till cant really focus on my studies again. So, jz stick to the old game n finish it. N now i jz notice that my timetable for the next week will be quite free, since i dont hv afternon class for 3 days. One of the lab is cancelled, n i dunno y, cause the teachers jz sent us the msg like that, n i dunno whether we need to do it in next time or not, since we got an exam in the end. See first lol.

18/11 sunny

Finally weekend, but i dont think i am gonna to hv so much free time too. Still got 1 exam the next week, n then need to prepare for the project thingy too. Haiz, stupid project, wanna us to create a company ourselves. Need to think of wat to sell, n where to get the thingy, n the price n so on so on. We alrdy so busy there, n then still got this stupid thingy? N we arent gonna make that things out for real n then sell them, we are jz gonna sell our ideas, n who do u think that will gonna be interested with those bullshit n buy ur that worthless ideas, without any real forms? Damn stupid n useless, really dunno y they wanna us to do such thingy to waste our time.

17/11 sunny

Today nthg special at all, dont hv class in the afternon as usual, but still need to go out n buy things for the next week n so on. Hmm, i dont think that i studied very much today as well, since i wasnt really in that mood, especially after 4 hrs inside the lab there, really made me feel so damn tired. watever, still need to catch things up cause next week i got 1 exam waiting for me there.

16/11 sunny

Busy busy busy busy. I thought that i can relax n study a bit in my home today, since i didnt hv any class at all this afternoon, but in the end, i need to go to the post office there to take my letter. Someone sent me a letter, but since i wasnt at home that time, so, i cant sign in n that is y need to waste my time n go out for it. But, luckily it was my allowance pindah rumah, or else i will be so damn pissed cause it wasted me so much time there. Hmm, meaning that, i get 1 month allowance jz for moving to another place, sweet, i can finally become rich again. But, still, i hvnt get my ic here, n my friends told me that there are some problems with that office there. Haiz, really dunno wat to do if i dont receive my ic be4 christmas, cause that time i need to go to other countries, n without my ic here, i dont think that i will be able to go back to france again lol. haiz, complicated.

15/11 sunny

Exams exams, but the first exams wasnt difficult at all, jz that i didnt hv enough time to finish all the exercises. Even using my high speed mode to rush through all those questions n i cant finish them all, so, kinda dunno about others then. For the japanese exams, still like that, n i think this time i can score better than the first time, watever, it was worth for it since i put so much time in memorizing all those words n the writting too. N in the end, i really didnt go for that stupid conference in which i would hv to stay till 8 pm if only i went. but i didnt, cause i dont hv so much time to waste on those stupid things n besides, according to one of my friends, he asked his seniors n they told him that it was nthg, n it was jz like a shit, totally worthless. So, in the end, we two decided not to waste our time on that thing, although acoording to some of my friends here, they said that the final exam got some questions about that stupid thing. hmm, watever. i think it is better to listen to seniors, rather than to my friends, cause they hvnt go through it at all. watever, gone is gone, now need to
spare time to prepare for another exam the next week alrdy.

14/11 sunny

Study study study n prepare for the exams again. Haiz, now i jz looked back at my timetable then only i know that i am gonna finish at 8pm next day, cause got 1 stupid conference after my class at other place, n it is very far from my home. I mean real far, like the other side of the city, so, i dont really think that i am gonna to be so damn stupid enough to fool around with those boring ppl, after classes still go to that conference, got nthg to do? Sorry, i still got lots of things to do. N now when i looked back at last yr exam papers, i only know that this yr i got that damn biology, wtf? I need to study biology again, n this time in french? Wtf, last time i didnt choose to become a doctor, all was because of that stupid subject, it isnt for any humans beings, cause i dont really hv so much time to sit down there n memorize all those stupid terms again. Really tiring n boring. zzz. Haiz, y the hell i need to study that subject again? haiz, i thought i can enjoy my life a little bit after getting here, but in actual fact, it is the opposite. zzz

13/11 sunny

Studying for the whole day, feeling so damn tired, especially after memorising all those japanese words. Haiz, didnt expect that learning japanese will be so hard even for me. Need to memorize all those spelling, n then some new words from time to time. Last time y did i wanna choose japanese then? I can always choose french, n then jz keep fooling around in my class there, cause my french level is more than enough for survive here alrdy, so y the hell make my life so damn complicated? Haiz. Cant blame it too, it was because i spent too much time gaming there few days ago, so needed to catch up everything within a single day. N i actually finished 2 nice games in 2 days time, really impresive. Sometime i also feel quite impressive with me myself, can sit in front of my ps3 there for the whole day jz to finish the game as fast as possible. Haiz, better dont get so addicted after that.

12/11 sunny

Actually today i planned to sit there n study there for the whole time, cause last night alrdy spent most of the time finishing up a new game. Now, really should put myself into those books there n start preparing for the coming exams this week. But then, study till halfway, i felt so damn bored, n then went gaming again, this time another new game. N i actually finished it in a single day, jz that i needed to stay awake till so late in the morning then. Haiz, wth was i doing there. I still got 2 exams next week, n then another exam the following week. N i also need to prepare my 2 or 3 lab reports for the next week, n yet still gaming there, like nthg is wrong at all? haiz. N other ppl were inviting me to go out for a dinner together in a restaurant one, but i jz rejected them, wasting my money n my time too. But, in the end, i still wasted my time gaming there. Haiz

11/11 sunny

Study study study. I didnt go anywhere, the whole day jz stay at home n busy studying there. N today was also the day that she went back to her school there. Her holiday wanna finish too. She is so damn lucky, having 2 weeks holiday like that in one go. Unlike me, not even one week, n not even long enough for me to plan for anything. N the worst was that, after holiday straight away got exams waiting for me there. N here, we dont hv all those study weeks break for students one. U got classes even though u are having exams, or even during the final at the end of each sem. So, if u dont really use ur time wisely, then it will be so damn ugly after that. Haiz, so damn pity myself, need to suffer for few yrs again.

10/11 cloudy

Nthg special today, jz that maybe because tmr is a holiday, then i rather feel like quite free too. But, actually it is jz that i dont hv any mood to study, after all, i amnt free at all. Got so many things left for me to do there, n next week got 2 exams too, n i still hvnt start preparing for them yet. I planned to study them today one, but really not in such kind of mood, n especially after i got such insomia last night. Haiz. So, in the end, i went playing games there, n almost finish the whole new game in a single day. Tmr really need to force myself to study alrdy.

9/11 sunny

Wao wao, after getting back from school, i was so damn tired alrdy, staying in the lab there for 4 hrs like that. N then, tonight need to prepare the lab reports for tmr lab again. Haiz, this kind of life is so damn boring n tiring. Cant plan anything at all, dont even hv any extra time to hang out with friends. Nvm, used to it alrdy, cause dont really hv any close friends here too.

8/11 rainny

The test today, well, i cant say it was kinda hard or so on, but i know that i got 1 question wrong alrdy since i didnt ask the teachers for some extra informations. The thing is that, nobody asked for it too, n that made me really dunno wat the hell has happened to all of them, cause they either like dont care that question at all, or they know the extra info really well, or the worst case is that, they didnt even know that we need that extra infos in order to answer the question properly? Either way, that test is alrdy passed, so dont really care at all anymore, i need to focus on the next tests afterwards too.

7/11 cloudy

Today jz spent my whole day studying there, cause tmr i got a test of organic chemistry, the subject that i hate the most, but is also the most important subject in chemistry, really pity myself. Y the hell i made my life so hard last time? Y did i choose chemlast time? I kinda forgot alrdy, cause now only i know that, chemical engineering needs to study a lot more than other ppl, n do a lot more lab thingy than other fields, like electronic engineering, n besies, electronic is easier for me, cause i love maths morethan chem, jz a little bit, n the best thing is that, i can kick away that organic chem. Sometimes, when i think over it again, really kinda regret of choosing this field, cause need to put a lot more efforts than other ppl. Although they say that chem engineering can earn a lot more money than other fields, but that one is still not sure yet, cause it depends on many factors at the same time too.

6/11 cloudy

Study study study study n study, cincai, i know that i need to focus on my studies from now on, or else later on dunno wat will happen. But, these few days i was kinda annoyed by my useless pc. I didnt open any programs there, n then it kept lagging like shit, then suddenly hanged there n became all black screen, wtf? I jz downloading something there, n then it became hanged like shit? zzz, line too good, till my pc cant progress the incoming datas? wtf, now really feel like my pc is lousy like shit, useless for nthg one. Open a few programs n then harddisc keeps on turing there alrdy, really speechless. Cant even do a multitask, or else something will happen. Haiz, if i am getting annoyed like that, maybe i will jz go n buy a new one here. zzz

5/11 cloudy

Haiz, so damn tired but still need to study for the exams. N i really not in that kind of study mood yet, last night i still spent few hrs jz to try to see my ps3 situations n as well as my games. Haiz, wth is wrong with me? Kinda complicated. N that fellow
is still on holiday now, sometimes i really dont understand malaysia system one, seem like so few classes, but they need to involve in those useless kok, wasting their time only. N assignments too, useless like shit, cause all ppl jz copying from other ppl,
so wat is the point then? While me here, every week hv exam till christmas holiday, really kinda stressful. Haiz, get used to it then.

4/11 rainny

Today is firday, n weekend is coming again, but i dont think that this weekend i am gonna be free around to do my own things, cause next week i got organic test, the subject that i hate the most. Although last time i finished studying that subject alrdy, i dont really feel like master it yet, cause sometimes, u wont be able to answer those questions jz by knowing or learning the mecanisms all along. U need to think n then predict the most appropriate reaction that is gonna happen, n that is y i hate it the most, cause u wont be sure with ur answer, not even a single one. So, if u got lucky, then u get all correct, n if u are so damn unlucky, then pity u, nthg else to say. Last yr the test was a lot more easier, so i jz did quite fine then. But, this time, i dont really think that it is gonna be the same again. So, jz be prepared for the worst then.

3/11 cloudy

First schooling day after short holiday, i really dont hv any mood to go to class today n feel so damn tired staying in the lab there. But, luckily today experiment is kinda easy n short, so it is still quite ok for me then. Or else, i really dunno wat am i gonna do about it. Too tired of going school, n dont really hv any free time to do my own personal things too. Haiz, jz get to used to it once more lol.

2/11 cloudy

Jz spent the 2 remaining days of my holiday studying there. N yet, i was still not quite on the study mood. Everytime jz go online n find something to spend the time there. But, i still managed to cover up all those principal sujects that i planned to catch on during this holiday, not bad at all. N i think, after tomorrow or by this weekend, i will be able to catch up all those thingy that i have been learning till now. Now i only notice that i didnt learned many new things too, almost all are simply jz some revisions for the pass 2 yrs studies, n i jz flipped through the notes like that. Those sujects really wasted me a lot of time during the class then.

1/11 rainny

Haiz, i jz know that i got class on this thursday, cause last time i always thought that my holiday is one week time, meaning from last thursday till this coming thursday, n i should be having my class on ly on this friday. Wtf, really hate my school a lot, cause my holiday is the shortest if u compare with all my friends here. They are all having 1 full week, n some even more than 1 week, while for me, not even a full week. I got only 6 days n so, n those teachers really clever, cause they take the thursday afternoon as a half day of holiday too, really like shit. That one is supposed normal working offday, like other schools too. Haiz, n i also dunno y, since our holiday is so less, y the hell we need to study till end of june then? We can always finish our classes earlier, around mid june or so. I really dunno wat the hell do they hv in their program there, always giving us some useless rubbish lessons or talks, wasting my time there.

31/10 sunny

Today jz finally getting out from my house to my friend there in order to scan those thingy n then send them to jpa. I need to settle them now, cause they wont accept it after 15 november. Nvm, it is like that one, cause i need to ask them to give me the pindah rumah allowance, no choice. But, i also wanna scan get some sijil from the insurance company there n then scan it to send it to my responsable here. The thingy is that, i dunno where is the office n it was close there even during working hr. Haiz, jz dont care about it alrdy, cause if i amnt going to see the doctor or watever thingy, then it should be ok even if i dont give her the sijil, dont care anymore. Sometime really feeling so damn tired chasing after those thingy.

30/10 sunny

A lovely sunday without doing anything, but at least i went to doby to clean up all my things n then jz stayed at home n online there. I think it is time for me to finally get started to study alrdy, cause i got so left behind in my studies there. Lots of
things still hvnt done yet.

29/10 sunny

Today jz stayed at home the whole day n then tried to finish up that game. I didnt do anything else. Actually i planned to go out to settle down a few things one, or at least make a few calls to settle down my hp thingy. But, still considering whether or not to continue my hp package or not, cause it is so damn expensive n i dont really need it at all, n besides, i alrdy got so many points in my acc there, n i can now change a new hp without having to pay so much too. Still considering, cause if i change it, then i need to pay for another 2 yrs again, not really worth for it lol..

28/10 sunny

Today, nthg special at all. Jz went to buy things n then later on at night went to friend's house there to stemboat with them. It was jz for all those chineses who are here. N i kinda really lazy to go out at all, cause dont really hv that mood, sometime really prefer to stay at home n sit alone to rest up. But, they asked me for few times alrdy n if i still dont wanna go like that, then it would be so embarassing too. Nvm, jz show some face especially during thise holiday then.

27/10 rainny

Finally i am on holiday once again. Now i can really rest up a bit n start to do my own personal things alrdy. But, actually i dont really hv many personal things to settle down, jz need to call my few friends to ask for something n then confirm with them only. Then, i jz spend my boring night finish watching all those dramas. Better rest up a bit for few days, then i will start to continue on my studies alrdy.

26/10 sunny

jZ another one more day then i will be on holiday alrdy. Cant wait for it alrdy, cause i am so damn tired with all the studies alrdy. Everyday hardly had enough sleep at all, n then need to stay in the in the lab there for 4 hrs for a single experiment,
n i got 3 experiments per week there, really soi damn dulan. N besides, need to prepare all those reports be4 doing those experiments too. Really got too much works to do. Better off for a week n let me rest during that holiday too.

25/10 rainny

Today it jz kept raining raining raining. Really getting sick with this kind of weather. Unlike last yr, i didnt care whether it is raining or not, cause i lived jz besides my school, no need 1 min to get to school too n can go back home whenever i
want too. Now, really getting sick with it, but wat to do? No choice at all, cause it is the nearest residence alrdy, whether u take it or u walk away. N i need to get back for my lunch too, made me walking under rain for 2 more times. Now really hoping
that holiday can fast fast come n then i can finally relax n spend some time for my own things.

24/10 sunny

Today really got no mood at all to go to school cause most of the students here are enjoying their holiday alrdy. Haiz, really pity with me myself. Although we are gonna hv our holiday later in few days n will start our class back few days later than
them, it is still not feeling very good after seeing them so damn free there n enjoying their holiday. Humans are always like that, jealous with other ppl. But as for me, i dont think i am gonna plan to do anything during this holiday, most probably
will jz stay at home n try to catch up with everything cause later on got so many exams waiting for us alrdy.

23/10 sunny

Study study study, really need to get my old self back or else it will be damn ugly next time after open school. Still got so many things lieft behind for me to settle down. Projects n so on n so many exams after that short holiday too. While other
are playing n enjoying there, i need to sit in front of my table n do my own revision, really so damn pity. But, good too, since i got nthg else to do that time too, no traveling cause i still hvnt got my ic here, maybe will need to wait for at least
1 month n so on. That is y i usually go traveling during christmas. N for other holiday, better stay at home, because first, it will waste me a lot of money, n second, make me feel like so damn tired after getting back from those journies. Cincai, good too, can stay at home n spend some time with her too. N today i think i annoyed since she always said that i will go n find other gals here. I thought she was jz kidding jz last time, like she always did be4. Haiz. After all, she is still a gal, n need me to sayang her n convince her that i will never do that to her. Hmmm, ok ok, i will only sayang u n ur that bear bear, can? Hug hug n muacks muacks.

22/10 sunny

Still the same, study till half way then jz go n play games. really sienz with my habitude now, but i also cant control over it. So, in order to avoid being addicted again, i jz deleted the games in the end. Watever, even though i know that when
i really wanna play again, i will jz go search n download again. But for the time being, jz let it be like that n delete it, so that i can spend my time to do other useful things rather than wasting my time like that.

21/10 cloudy

ANother weekend, now i also dunno y i am looking forwards to those weekend, cause maybe can sleep longer than i used to be during weekdays? Maybe. ANother week more i will be holiday alrdy, but i dont hv any plan for my first holiday, cause feel so damn lazy about going anywhere n besides it will jz waste my money too. SO jz better stay at home n playing my games or watever then. I still got tonnes of games waiting for me to play there, keep downloading all the times, but never have got the free time to actually go play them. Wat a waste.

20/10 cloudy

Today nthg special as well. After getting back from the school, i jz started doing my things, went buying things n then slept a while, cause long time didnt hv enough sleep in the afternoon alrdy, always making me feel so damn tired in the class, especially when listening to those boring lectures n dunno wat to do besides falling asleep all the ways. Then i started studying my japanese, cause next week i got 1 listening exam. But in fact, last time, i alrdy learnt it, so i will jz need to refresh back my memory n then all should be fine alrdy. Watever, better do it while i still can then.

19/10 rainny

Now it is starting to rain alrdy. I kinda hate those kind of weather here, cause i dont hv any cars here, n besides, my house is so damn far away from the school. Today i needed to walk under the rain jz in order to get back home to take my lunch n do other things. N then needed to walk back again to school, it was really like a bullshit. Really hate those weather, especially when i was rushing like shit alrdy. No choice, now it is the seasan changing time, so the weather will be kinda unstable n it will jz rain all the times n getting colder n colder then. Better get used to it.

18/10 sunny

Nthg special today too, jz that the teacher said that we will be having our japanese test in the next week. wth, we got so many things to learn, need to memorize how the writting n how to pronouce too. Actually i planned to do start focusing on japanese during my next week holiday. But then, here it comes be4 the holiday starts again. N as far as i can tell, i will be having an exam per week right after the holiday. Really is speechless, much more stressful than last 2 yrs be4. I thought that it should be easier, but wth it is the opposite then? Really make me dont hv that kind of mood to study alrdy. After all, i cant study for my whole life like that too, right? No point at all.

17/10 sunny

Tired tired. The first day of the week need stay in the lab for 4 hrs is really so damn tiring. N after that, we need to stay for 30 mins like that in order to choose our class leaders too, made me cant go back home to rest up straight after the lad session. But, at least, we got nthg much to do today, jz need to write n finish all the preparation thingy, then only next time be4 holiday, we need to do it n then we will finish our first lab session. But surely, they got another session of lab for us after that, but it will be a totally different thing for sure. Haiz, i thought that i can escape from this tiring lab thingy, but in the end, i jz need to admit my fate alrdy. thing will be getting worse n worse.

16/10 sunny

Finally, i studied for the whole day, not entirely the whole day, cause night time i felt so damn lonely n boring, so jz spent some time to go online n find something to see or watch. 2 more weeks then i will be on holiday, but after holiday, i will be having 1 exam per week till christmas. Kinda boring, so right after this holiday, i really should get my mood back n start to study alrdy, or else it will be damn ugly.

15/10 sunny

Today is saturday, another week has jz passed. N i felt so damn lazy today too, but it left nthg inside the refri there, so, even though felt lazy, i got no choice, but to go out to buy things then. N then they got some sort of activity to go for a boat ride in the river here, n it was free for students too. I didnt go, cause felt too damn lazy to go out after shopping. I thought i can finally start to study or at least scan through something that i learnt, but in the end, i did nthg. Still feeling so damn lazy, although i had my class fro almost 1 month alrdy. Cant blame me too, cause we didnt learn much new things, i had alrdy seen those things the 2 yrs be4. Now those teachers are doing so, cause got a few students are coming from other schools n they dont hv our level yet, so most of us got no choice, but to waste our time to go through those things again. Haiz, watever, time for me to rest n enjoy too.

14/10 sunny

Now, come to think of it, i jz went to find some informations about my internet line here. N actually i dont hv any free call to fixe line in malaysia at all, really is kinda troublesome n expensive for it. Cause now every month i will need to pay extra in order to call back home then. Last time i always thought that it has that kind of offer to call back home for free one, cause almost all internet package actually got this thing. Now, not the case here. Haiz, troublesome n wasting money again. N btw, tonight i actually planning wanna go to finally start to do my works one, but then those friends came n disturb me n asked me about where to go n wat to do during chrsitmas, making me cant really do anything about it. Another night is then wasted. N i still got lots of things to do after that.

13/10 sunny

Finally, the technicien is here alrdy. Now i can really hv my own internet, with a max speed of around 30 times faster than my internet in sibu. So damn nice, meaning that i can jz download watever i want in a few seconds then. Now i can finnally start to do my own things alrdy, like i can watch anime here, n update my blog too. Unlike last time, they even block my blog, really is wtf. N it also got free telephone too, meaning that i can call my parents back to sibu whenever i want at free cost. Sorry, that one is only for fix line, if only u got one fix line in ur hostel there, then i can call u every night if u want too. Not for handphones, which is a pity. Nvm, we will figure something out for it.

12/10 sunny

Today afternoon i didnt hv any class at all, cause we are taking our turns for this lab. N according to them, this lab is actually quite easy, jz need to know to to work with those machinese, n then jot down those readings, n besides, in a group of three, we only need to pass up a single copy of our result in the next week. So, it was kind of easy, right? Since i didnt hv any lab at all, so i would better spent my precious time sleeping then, cause it had been a while since i hardly had enough sleep these few days. Every night i sleep so late, but need to wake up so early in the morning for those classes again. N those french students are really something, they dare to sleep
in the class in front of the teachers too, not in my case. As for me, i will jz stay as concentrated as i can, cause i cant afford to miss out anything important, or else it will be damn ugly alrdy. So, jz sleeping the whole day n i did nthg at all, cause tmr i only got 1 lab, n i had alrdy finished all the preparations.

11/10 sunny

Today nthg special, jz that i got japanese lesson today. Kinda bored too, n need to memorize all the spelling as well. But, i didnt touch it at all, even till now. N last time i did memorize the whole things, but after a few months, i forgot them all alrdy, since i amnt using it at all. Now, need to redo the whole things, i think i will jz start to spare some free time to study my japanese at last, cause it is the single thing that i am interested in.

10/10 cloudy

A whole new week again, really dont feel like going to school at all. I dunno wat happened to me now, still cant really focus on my studies there, unlike those 2 yrs be4. I think it was because the things that i learnt here are actually the old things that i had seen in the last few yrs, jz a little bit more details. So, it is kinda bored, cant make me feel like wanna go to study them, cause they are still the same. No wonder they said it will be easier after the first 2 yrs, cause all the things are in that 2 yrs, after that, jz need to do some experiments n lots of projets n so on. Hmm, kinda boring, but in the same time, make me free as well. Talking about today experiment, actually i got the correct thing in my preparation there alrdy, but the teacher jz very dulan, she asked me to change its form to show the relationships between the whole thingy. Wao, she suddenly asked me to do so in the last 5 mins, sure my head was kinda confused n cant think properly alrdy. So, in the end, she let us go back n finish those things in our home then. Watever

9/10 cloudy

today, i kinda dunno wat happened, cause they lab report that i had prepared during this weekend isnt correct at all. Not that it was wrong, but the teachers are sibeh dulan, they wanna another expression from the one that i had written, cause i make some calculations in between, n it can actually help me to simplify the calculation a little bit, but the teachers want the all complete expression of the concentration, really dulan. I spent about 1 hr to think where did i make a mistake n to change to another expression, n another 1 hr to correct the whole thing. Haiz, really dunno wth is that idea, y i need to follow them instructions like that? As long as i got the correct method n correct calculation, then all should be fine alrdy.

8/10 cloudy

Finally is getting colder n colder these few days. Autumn is finally here then, as i expected. Today seem like i didnt do anything, except jz finished preparing 1 lab report n then preparing my english presentation. But, i still dont hv internet here, so, it is kinda bored n i got no choice but to use my ps3 to go online to find some infos if i really them for the reports. But, the technician said that he will be coming this thursday to see my phone line here, so i think i will jz need to wait for few more days, then all should be settled alrdy, jz need to wait for my modem to arrive then.

7/10 rainny

Next week i got 3 labs reports to do, really kinda of headache. But, wat else can i do? N it is jz the beginning of the yr too. Wat will happen after few months then? Should be quite busy till no time to shit around then. My seniors told me be4 that, but i always thought that after i go into the cycle of engineer, it should be a lot easier than last 2 yrs. But, seem like it isnt true at all, still got of things to do n to busy with, especially we got few projects to do, n so many lab reports to prepare for too. Wth, cant do a single thing about it.

6/10 sunny

Today i went looking for the teacher n she said that it is ok, since that test isnt really important, but next time jz be more careful about it. No need to retake it anymore, since it is very complicated, need to ask someone else to come to open up the section jz for 1 student n so on. watever, as long as it is ok, then fine for me, wanna me to sit for it again also can do, cause i dotn really care. After all that test
is jz to see we are in which level, n dont hv anything important about it.

5/10 sunny

Today, i thought that my exam is from 3 45 to 5 45 in the afternoon, but it was actually from 13 30 to 15 30, with all other ppl. How do i know? Since they divide us into two groups n i didnt see it carefully, i saw the first group is that time, n i thought that the second group will be the next period then. Really speechless, n i think it was all because i dont hv internet in my house here. Last time i can always
open my timetable whenver i am at home, n can check tmr class n so on. Now, really is a pain in the ass, cant do anything about it. Hoping that my internet will come as soon as possible, or else i cant do a single thing at home, not even preparing my reports.

4/10 sunny

Today i kinda frustated, cause i really dunno how the hell the planning on the board there works. During the break time, i was looking for the room for my japanese class lesson, n it was in batiment H. Then i went seraching that batiment inside the whole school compound, n i asked so many ppl, including professuers there, but none of them knew where is it, they jz randommly gave me some directions n asked me to
go search for it. Fine, then finally i got no choice, but to ask the woman in the reception counter there, then she said the batiment isnt inside the school, it is outside on the other side there, n then i went out to start looking over again, but i dunno where the hell it is. Then, finally i got no choice, but to call my friend, n he said that the block that we had our first exercise there is the batiment H, but last time they called it with another name, wth. Ok, finally found it, then i start to think, wat kind of excuse should i give to my teacher, cause i was late for around 30 mins alrdy. But then, when i knocked on the door, nobody was inside there, n the room was locked too, i was kinda blur n didnt know wat happened, then i went back to school again, jz to be sure that i got the correct room number. The number was correct, no problem at all, but y nobody there? Then i went over again, n checked outside the building there, other classes got students, but my room got nobody there. Wtf, i got no other choice, but to go back home right away, skipping my class for the first time here. N i alrdy wasted almost 1 hr for that, looking for nthg. Really speechless with their planning here, making us so damn confused, even those french ppl sometimes also complaining there.

3/10 sunny

Today nthg special at all, jz that i now know that among all of my classes here, most of them are useless for nthg one, jz like the economy, n then english n then japanese. Those classes made up almost 2 days of the week, n then the labs thingy, make up another 2 days. So, only 1 day n plus is normally for the class the exercise one. No wonder i am kinda lazy to study alrdy, cause got nthg much to study, jz need to prepare the lab report n then pass it up after we finish the lab. But, my seniors said, we will be damn busy afterwards, got lots of projects n other things to busy with, maybe jz after theholiday. N i am jz waiting for my holiday in 3 weeks time, although till now i still dont hv a single plan for it, maybe i will jz rest at my home there, or try to catch up the things that i had forgetten in my studies then. Even maybe go travelling, i will jz go visit those nearby towns n so on, sure wont be going out from france during this holiday. N besides, still remember last time how she got insomia jz because i went travelling for around 10 days to other countries n cant contact her. Hahah, she is kinda cute that time. Still considering, see i got any other planning or not.

2/10 sunny

Y the hell it is still so damn hot? Supposed to be autumn alrdy, n yet it is around 20+ everyday, even during the night time. When i am in my home alone, i jz keep my bottom part naked, but i can still feel the heat. Last yr, it was the opposite, so damn cold till march, even though it was spring alrdy. Now, it is the opposite, watever, at least hot is better than cold. Today is kinda bored, no internet, nthg to do, besides studying. N dont really hv much to study at the early yr too, n most teachers are teaching those useless principes of the machines that we use in the labs there. As if we are the one who are gonna fix those machines when we hv any problems. Shit, really useless at all, almost made me feel like wanna fall asleep inside the class. N especially because my timetable here is more packed than last yr, jz that everyday thursday afternoon dont hv any class at all. watever, get used to it, need to stay here till the end of my course too, cant complain so much .

1/10 sunny

Today is the first weekend that i am actually trying to get up to my table there to finish up my work. But, i dont hv internet connection at all, so, how the hell am i supposed to prepare my lab reports? I need to find those informations on the web, even though i can find them in the last yr books or execise there, but it will waste a lot of time if i do so. If i got internet, everything jz go to google search a while, then all things will come out alrdy, so nice n efficient. Now, no choice alrdy, need to go find back all those informations that i need, or else, i will jz have to go my friend there to borrow his wifi n finish the whole things. Nvm, get used to it then, still got few more weeks like that. N later in the night time, they got some kind of welcoming party for the new house, but i really hate to go to those things, really prefer staying at home there to do my things, either playing games or jz studying or watever. Going to such party will jz makes me tired, n gained nthg. Nvm, give them face for the first time then, but when i start to busy next time, sure wont really care about it at all.

30/9 sunny

Starting from tonight, i wont be having any internet till the next few weeks, for the technicien to come n fix the line for me. haiz, my line is so damn miserable, without internet, dunno wat to do during my free time, n dont even know how to prepare my lab reports too, cause i need to find those infos on the websites there. Lazy to go to library n work there, cant focus n dont really feel like wanna go there too. Staying at home n do everything is the best, but now dont seem like having other choices alrdy. Nvm, maybe will jz go to my friend's house there to borrow his wifi n then finish my report during the weekend for these 2 weeks first. Then only see wat to do.

29/9 sunny

Now should be alrdy autumn, but it is still very hot during the night time, really dont get it. Last yr, it was so damn cold n while this yr, it is still so hot even at time like this. This weather makes me sweat a lot when sleeping even though i dont wear any shirt alrdy. But, at least, here is still better than malaysia there, it should be a lot hotter there. N thinking of the exams that i am gonna to hv next week. Teachers wanna give us some tests jz to see our chem level, in order to hv an idea of how to teach us. So, basically, it is jz some tests on last yr topic, n i dont think i am gonna revise all of them. Watever, jz cincai do them, no need to care so much, since it isnt counted in the final result.

28/9 sunny

today nthg special as well, jz that afternoon didnt really hv any class at all, so can come back earlier to do my own things. N, i only got 2 days left with my internet, after that it will be a whole damn long period without any internet then. That time, how can i survive then? A big question, nthg to do, nobody to chat to, n cant even accompany her, hope she can cope with it them.

27/9 sunny

Today still the same, but i am still quite sick n need to go to school some more. Really pity myself, but the worst is that the prof of ogranic chem really dunno how to teach one. Even those french ppl hardly understand wat he was teaching there. His handwritting is so hard to read alrdy, n together with his that speed, really hard to catch up anything. Jz copy n copy, next time will only go n try to understand. This week should be quite free, since monday i didnt hv any class, n tuesday n wednesday is almost full of those presentations. As for thursday, i only got morning class, so it will jz leave friday a busy day then. Still can enjoy my easy life here for the moment, at least till the first holiday at the end of october.

26/9 sunny

Nthg special today, except that today i dont hv any class at all, because they were having their orientation weekend in some other places, n the school is kind enough to give us one day off, jz to give those ppl who are going to rest well in the home. As for me, better stay in the house n do my things is far more better than wasting my money like that to fool around with those ppl. N today i kinda dulan, because the server here actually has blocked many websites, such as my blog n so on. I cant even go to see my blog anymore, n cant even go to see n compare the internet price for some websites too. Damn lousy wifi. But, it is so damn strange, for fb, it is slow like shit, but for pps, i dont even need time to log at all, n its speed for pps is faster than sg line too. Wtf, really is dulan, meaning that it encourages us to watch pps, rather than studying there? Wat kind of line is that? N for my new internet, it seem like i need to wait for around 2 or 3 weeks for the person to come n settle down the things. Haiz, need to overgo the internet-less life after these few days alrdy. So damn pity.

25/9 sunny

I think i was jz gaming for almost the whole day there, cause i wanna finish it earlier n then later on can focus on my studies. But the game seem to be longer than wat i thought n it took me quite some time to finish it off. Watever, the point is, i quickly make it through, n then can finally go to do my other things alrdy. Hmm, now looking at the calender, n in 2 or 3 weeks from now, i am gonna to hv my holiday alrdy. Nice one, maybe i will jz stay here n rest in my home then.

24/9 sunny

This weekend is the orientation weekend, but i didnt go to those activities. First, i am so damn lazy to go out on the weekend to fool around with those ppl, n the price is so damn expensive too. Around 200 euros for the 2 days trips, u must be kidding me there. This is the bad thing about going into a private school, all thingy need to pay for urself, n even the printing paper we use in the school too, really speechless. So, i better spend my day in my home there, either watching movie or playing games, all is far more useful than fooling around with them. N besides, those malays also invite us to go out for dinner tonight too, in a so damn expensive restaurant. They say that the buffet there costs around 20+ somethings, which is the amount of money i spend normally for buying my things in a whole week, damn ridiculous. So, better spend my whole day in the house there then.

23/9 sunny

Another week has jz passed, n i nearly did nthg during these 2 weeks, apart settling down few things n then trying to make some new friends in the school there. But i still prefer staying in the house there, rather than going out or fooling around with them. This weekend they are gonna to travel to another city, some sort like orientation, i amnt going because it is way too expensive. No choice, who ask me to go into a private school there, all thingy need to pay n need money one, is like that lol, nthg to complain about, even if i print out my things in school there, i also need to prepare my papers along. Wat the hell, really is shit lol..

22/9 sunny

Today i only got class in the morning, which is a good news to me, as always. Last time my timetable isnt fixed like this time. This time, every thursday only got morning class, but is 4 hrs inside the lab there. N today i jz had my first class in the lab there. Now feeling so lonely alrdy, cause need to do all those things alone, no working together in a gp like last time alrdy. The thing is that, i cant go any faster like last time, cause be4 that, i can always order other ppl to do that n do this, to save the time, but now need to do all those works alone, n then need to prepare n pass up the report as well too. Cincai, alrdy quite used to this way alrdy, so dont really matter at all. Even though dont hv any class in the afternoon, but i still need to go my school again to print out the things to send to CAf there, cause dont hv any printer in my home, so damn pity. N i never thought that i can actually renew my ic in my school there, so, it actually saved my problem, no need to go to other places to busy with that thing alrdy. NIce.

21/9 sunny

Today nthg is special too, jz that everyday got class from 8 to 6 like that. haiz, everyday english 3 hrs, it is really boring like hell. N I stil dont really have any mood to study or start to do any homework. Still holidaying, or alrdy counting for the next holiday to come around soon enough. Haiz, need to restore my habit slowly.

20/9 sunny

Today is still the same, jz that i am getting busier n busier. Now only i realise that i got some many things left behind still hvnt do yet, not even arranging my things properly here, those study thingy. Cincai, jz try to it this weekend then. But the thing that i hate the most is the internet here, really is like a shit. I thought that it is quite ok, although the speed is not really that fast like last time, but i can still stand for it. But, today i cant connect to internet at all, really dunno wat the hell has jz happened. Server like that n yet still ask us to pay monthly for
the service? U better come kill me faster, i will rather go for a package of internet n telephone to fix lines in other countries for free for around 30 euros only per month, dont really care about that amount of money alrdy, since internet is very vry important for me, not only to connect with other ppl, especially that stupid idiot, but also to settle down my things here n there.

19/9 rainny

Today was a damn rainny day. I never bought umbrella out to school in france one, cause it never rained heavily here one. Jz that, dunno these few days wat is wrong with the weather, kept on raining non stop. Even i cant get out, n even if i got out, get soaked like a chicken under the rain. So damn pity. Haiz, n today is also the day that i finally start to grab on my table to study after holidaying fro more than 2 months. But, studying jz for around 2 hrs like that, then dont wanna continue anymore, although teacher will be teaching some other new things tmr. Watever, dont care it for now, since nobody cares at this moment, all others are busy with their party every night n day. dont care

18/9 rainny

Tired tired tired. Today i went out with some of the juniors n seniors here, never thought of that we actually got around 20 malaysians here, but most of them are malays, so dont really care at all. Be4 that, i actually wanna reject alrdy, cause i really dont like to go out to town during a weekend like this, because it is the time for me to rest in my hone normally. Haiz, making myself tired only. But, no choice, since most of them will go n maybe it is the only chance for us to meet up too. Going out, n i didnt expect that today is kinda windy n cloudy n it was very cold too. So, i jz kept shiverring there, cause it isnt really my style to wear a pull be4 going out on summer. Haiz, really like to hug her at that time, making myself warmer, but she isnt here with me. Haiz, too damn pity. Nthg can be done, jz chat chat chat n then go back home to rest or gaming better than spending my time with those malays. I actually planned to start studying tonight one, but in the end, jz dont care about it. Haiz, cincai, tmr or afterwards then. Started school for 1 week alrdy, n yet i still hvnt sit down in front of my study table to study properly, most of them jz sit there n movies or online. See tmr lol.

17/9 rainny

Today my friend said he wanna come over here to cook n then eat together, n he also got ajak another senior here. That senior is 3 yrs older than me, n he only got 2 more yrs to go. We discussed a lot about our program n our salary after we finish our studies. He said, with our master, we can go to become prof in the uni in malaysia, with a starting salary of around 7k + like that, n if we get in with a phd, then the starting salary will be 10k +, which is a good news, since becoming a prof is really the most easier job in the earth here. But, jz dunno when malaysia will bankrup after we get back. He also said that, got some seniors who worked here, n their starting salary is 3k or 4k+ euros here, which is not bad at all. But the thing is that, the tax here is so damn high n if i dont want to retire here, it will be a damn waste then, since i cant get all my money back after that. But, talking about getting a phd here, jpa never offers any students to do till now. But he said that if we manage to get jpa for phd, our allowance will be 3k+ per month n then includes the working salary here which is 2k+ like that, meaning that we can actually get 5k+ like that if we extend jpa n do our phd here. Cool enough. Imagine i do my phd here for 3 yrs n each month got that kind of amount of money, i can straight away go buy a house after finishing all my studies here, no jokes. But still considering, cause it will take another 3 yrs time, n i will be damn old by that time alrdy, better finish my master first then only consider it again. N he also adviced me to take another master at the same time too, meaning getting a double master in 3 yrs lol, but that one is only available in the last yr, so nthg can be done right now. Really learned quite a lot from him tonight, but i cant write all them down now lol. Nvm, n i also went to her blog today. Haha, n jz like i said be4, if got no money at all, dont expect me to be romantic with u, cause romantic needs money. That guy is a so damn rich guy, but he is using his parents money, but i cant do so right now. Tell u wat, my parents told me last time alrdy, even during my wedding, dont expect them to sponsor me anything, cause they got 4 children, if each one of us get his money, others will also ask the same thing, n since they arent that rich, so dont expect at all. That is the reason y need to be independant, no choice. Cant blame them too, cause they also need to save money for their retirement, since they also dont expect us to give them money every month after we got our own family. Life is like this, so dont think like that dolphin there, can romantic like that n go to those expensive restaurants, since that guy isnt using his own money. Cincai, their business, no time to care for them pun.

16/9 sunny

First weekend after i jz started my school again. Really tired like shit, dont get used to it yet. N starting from next week onwards, i will be damn busy alrdy, everyday all from 8 to 6, except thursday afternoon dont hv any classes. Wat kind of planning is that? Meaning that i cant even go out to settle down my other things then? Really dulan. Haiz, but wat can i do? Since it is our system here. N tonight i also dunno y when i went out to dobi there, it reminds of the time when i was still in intec, fooling around in seniors' room there till 1 or 2 in the morning, n didnt study at all for around 1 month. Only after i went out, then only i started to feel the stress n study again. Hmm, when i was still in secondary school, always thinking about going out to other countries to study, but y now i am feeling wanna go back to sibu that much then? Miss those happy moments with my old friends back then, but time cant go back again. All left is just our memory. N i also dunno y i suddenly will go to see other ppl profile, maybe jz wanna see how they get separated. Strange enough, they are still living the same town, n then get separated. Really strange, unlike us here. Sometimes i always think that, if we really manage to stay together after i finish all my studies here, it is really really so damn sweet for us, n other ppl will also think like that too, because i have alrdy heard a lot from other friends how they got separated jz because of the distance problem, not to mention going across to other country, like my case here. So, pls, gambathe for both of us, jz hang on for such a short moment, then can always stick together alrdy. N it will also be a waste if jz let go like that, since it is hard for us to be together alrdy. Treasure it then.

15/9 sunny

Today nthg special too, but i jz know that this yr i got a group project to do. N it is actually involving about creating a new product n then sell it into the market, somesort like creating our own company n then try to sell it to other ppl. Wth, this is a management project actually. Now i know y my seniors always said they were so damn busy n y master is so damn hard to study. Hmm, but wat can i do? Jz need to spend my time more wisely n then try to prepare it since the beginning of the yr with my french friends, or else we will be dead meat after that. But right now, we didnt even know we are in which group, so wat can i do then? jz waiting again like last time. N still, the same, no internet in my own room here, so damn miserable.

14/9 sunny

Today actually nthg important in school there, jz some demo of how to putting off a fire, some sort like a security class. But, it is so pointless to get those classes, since we dont really need them in our school there. Who is stupid enough to start up a fire n then put himself in danger too? Not going to do anything too, but, since they need to get our signature, then i cant really complaint, but jz go there n hv a look. Afternoon jz for the inscription in the school there, but i still dunno when can i get my student card yet, n i need it to renew my residence card in france here too. Still many things to do right now, jz dunno how to handle them at the same time without any internet, stupid resident.

13/9 sunny

Second day of schooling day we alrdy had 4 classes n need to stay till alomost 6? It is quite a disappointment. I thought i can at least still enjoy my first two weeks of life here, but now, seem like my plan is all screwed up alrdy. But, some of them are jz revisions for us, although those teachers maybe going too fast at certain times, but nvm. Jz listen n listen, lazy to study now, wait till weekend or after settling down all those important things first, at least.

12/9 sunny

First day of schooling day, n surprisingly, we only hv 3 foreign students in my class there, 2 malaysian n 1 china ppl. Really funny, unlike last time, we got a dozens of foreign studentsin our class, n it makes us feeling not so lonely, but now, only we 3 there, really dunno wat to do n wat can i say about it. Nvm, jz get used to it, cause i am here jz for study n no more other things. N for the first day need to stay till 5 alrdy, quite a hard day, right? N the thing the most dulan me is that, i still hvnt hv my internet yet, really is bullshit. Wat are they thinking actually, dont they know that internet is the most important thing for us, the uni students? cause we do almost all of our things online, unlike last time when we were still in primary school. N now they still hvnt get it, even though i have been here for around a week alrdy? Really is damn shit, n i still hvnt call my parents yet after i coming here, i think they will be damn worried about me alrdy. Go damn it, the crous, useless for nthg, n my house isnt really that near the school too, need to walk for around 10 mins n so. Really speechless.

11/9 rainny

Today is the mooncake festival, but i dont really celebrate it here. Even though i am in sibu last time, i didnt really care it pun, so it doesnt make any difference
anymore. Hmm, thinking of my school again, tmr will be the first day of my next 3 yrs here. Really dont hv that kind of mood to go to school after 2 months holiday, but this time, it should be better, since there is another malaysian there, jz that he is a malay, not a chinese, but at least still got something. Last 2 yrs, in my yr, i was the only malaysian in my old school, making me feeling so lonely at class, nthg to talk about or to discuss, n with all other ppl, we can barely jz
talk about our school thingy, since i wasnt born in france last time, didnt know much thing here. Suffer like shit, dont hv even one true friend, now at least is
better a bit. N 3 yrs to go ah? If i am going to do my phd, meaning that i still got another 6 yrs to go, such a long time. I amnt so sure whether i can really handle it
alrdy, after all, i cant study for my whole life n trying not do start working bah? N by the time when i get out, i am alrdy 27 like that, other ppl have alrdy earned their first gold alrdy, n wat do i got? Only one paper of certificate a doctor title? Useless enough? after all, many ppl told me alrdy, when we start working, not the title or the certificate that matter, it is friendship that matters. Whenever u got into a problem n if there is someone who come n give u a hand, that will really help u a lot. So, better socialize with as many ppl as possible.

10/9 sunny

Today weather is so damn hot n yet we still went out to explore the city. Lyon is actually quite a big city, n seem like it always got all sorts of festivals n so on. But, the weather is very disturbing, n we got no choice, but to go buy some ice cream n cold drink on our halfway back then. Although is quite big, the shops here are almost the same as all other shops that we can see in other parts of france, so there is actually nthg special at all. Nvm, jz take a few walks since my arrival. Next time i dont think that i will be able to get this kind of free time to go explore it alrdy. Better stay at home n resting there.

9/9 sunny

My things have finally arrived n i jz spent few hrs to arrange them properly in my room here, but, maybe because my room here is bigger or watever, even after arranging those things in their places, there are still lots of spaces inside my house there. I think that my house here maybe is almost the same size as my house in colmar back then. Really nice, jz that when i am alone in the midnight n do nthg, i maybe will feel a little bit lonely then, too quiet alrdy. Nvm, jz get used to it, since my next three yrs will be staying here too.

9/8 sunny

My things will be arriving by tmr, so be4 that, i actually got nthg to busy with right now. Jz waiting, waiting n while trying to settle down my things with all other ppl, like sfere, jpa n so on. But, without internet here, all is jz like a bullshit, cant really do anything, unless i go to my friend there to borrow up his internet. Haiz, boring staying at home alone too, so, better jz get out n streach my legs a little bit when i am so free like right now, since when i start my class next week, it will be a total diferrent story alrdy, enjoy the last few free days then.

9/7 cloudy

Today, i finally get into my new room here, quite big, bigger than my last room in rennes, but the bathroom is a little bit smaller. Nvm, as long as i got my room then all should be ok alrdy. Then i went out to buy my things, but i cant finish buying all of them in one go, need to buy those supplies again next time, maybe tmr. Afterwards i went to my friend here to settle the ups thingy, since finally i get my exact adresse here. But for the first time, my card cant pay it, nvm, then we jz try with my friend's card. But after that, another problem occured, i cant open the code bar for the ten boxes, wth. That time i was really stunned n dunno wat to do anymore, since i cant even open the file myself, how can i expect my friend to be able to print in out later on n label them on my boxes there? Wth. Then, jz made a few calls to the UPS online help service there, n then finally got settled down. N luckily, that postman came n picked up all those things today, meaning that i will be able to get them by friday evening then. quite a relief, i can get my things in this week. Nvm, but now i am quite tired alrdy, since last night i only got 2 or 3 hrs sleep n then jz now got that kind of shock, that really made me tired like shit n headache too. Afterwards, i tried to settle down a few things here n there, n then really left no much more for me alrdy. Thx goodness, tmr i can finally hv time to clean up my house n prepare to receive my
things the next day then. N today i was also able to chat with her, although got tonnes of things to settle down that time. Nvm, cause when she goes back next few days, we wont be able to do like that anymore, since the internet in her hostel there is really like shit lol....

9/6 sunny

Today i jz arrived in my new town here, lyon. But nobody came to pick me up, so i jz did all the things by myself then. First take the train to the new area n then need to walk for around 2 hrs jz to go to my school, then to buy my insurance n my living places there. But, the thing that dulan me is that, i arrived there at 3 something, but that fellow alrdy closed the door n chased me out from the office. ZZZ . It is saying that they are closing at 4 mah, then wth? Really zz. luckily i debate with them n then they gave me a room jz to stay for one night. But, my plan is kinda huru hara, my things still with another fellow there n here i got no equipement at all, not to mention how to cook n so on. Haiz, watever. But, the thing that i dont like the most is that i made her quite diappointed this time. Saying that wont compare n yet i am still comparing with other gals, wth. I really hate this kind of myself. Although i did apologize to her, she didnt accept it, nthg i can do alrdy. Really hoping that she wont get angry for quite a long time lol. I jz hope that i wont do like to her next time anymore, or else i will dulan me myself then. Dunno u wanna accept it or not, sorry again, sincerely.

9/5 cloudy

Today is the last day that i am staying in rennes, it is kinda hard for me to believe that i have actually stayed here for 2 yrs alrdy, time really does fly, right? N jz to look back, i still remember the first day when we have jz arrived in france, everyone was jz busy searching for the famous effiel tower, we didnt know anything about france that time beside that tower. Now, everything has changed, n everyone isnt the same anymore n we dont stay in the same place anymore. Hmm, three years gone alrdy, meaning that another three years for me to go on be4 i actually finish my studies here. But, today, i amnt gonna talk about those things with u, I also dunno y that i am comparing her with other gals. She is my first gf, right? Whom can i compare her with? Then, how the hell i can do like that then? Dont get it. Haiz, n now i jz notice that i am actually bullying her a lot, everyday n eveytime i am jz making fun of her, n while she is making fun of me jz for a tiny little thingy, i will jz get angry alrdy. Since when i become so impatient jz like her alrdy? Really no idea at all. Better control myself a little bit next time n try not to bully her so much then.

9/4 rainny

Today jz went to junior's house n chit chatting with her. Nthg special actually, jz kinda got the feeling of coming here the first yr n did my prepa last time, such a nostalgic. Time really does fly, now i will need to start my forth yr of studies in france alrdy. N after three more yr, i will finish all my studies alrdy, hopefully. I dont think that i am gonna continue with my phd, since it will take me another three yr time n i also cant leave her alone there, can i? But, she is the one who is actually planning on to do her master for another two yrs. I really dunno her, up to her to decide.

9/3 sunny

Jz waiting for the time to go n come out with nthg actually. zzz. not really my style, but i cant do anything about it. Wtf. without my exact adresse there, i cant settle a single things. Nvm, i think i will jz settle them down when i get there next time. Really hate french ppl doing styles, none of my business, u go ask other ppl, bla bla, lots of excuses. watever, jz get used to it. I am here to study, no more other things alrdy.

9/2 sunny

Today i am kinda frustrated because that fellow in the residence there still didnt want to give me my room number. Wtf, he promised to give me my room number last time n now he is arguing with me there? Really speechless with him. Fine, nvm, i will get there alone n settle it on my own n then ask my friend here to send me my things afterwards. Fine, the same result, jz that need to trouble lots of ppl again n it will be a late a few days from the expected day for me to take my things then.

9/1 sunny

Things are getting complicated as i am still waiting for my reply there. I really dunno wat to do anymore, cause they still hvnt reply my e mail regarding my room number, so how the hell am i supposed to move my things then? without my exact adresse? wth. really hate those french ppl, when holidaying then jz dont really care at all, unless it is the world end. if tmr still cant get any reply, then i will hv to figure somehting out, cause my train wont wait for me.

8/31 sunny

today is actually malaysia's independance day, but i dont really care about it. first thing, i am now in france, not to my concern, right? second thing, it is about the racism thingy in malaysia. Watever, jz like a normal day n i have been waiting waiting for these long days. Only till tmr then only i getto know my room number, meaning that i can only settle the ups thingy starting from tmr, hope time is really on my side then.

8/30 sunny

Nthg has come out today, jz that, i spent most of my time accompanying her n chatting with her. It is the only thing i can do for right now, since we are so free at the same time, still having holiday. when the holiday finally ends, then only we will need to try to spare out real precious time to keep each other company. hmm. nvm, that time we will figure something out, cause as far as i know, my next yr should be a little bit easier than last yr, but i amnt sure the same thing for her, since she doesnt really know how to arrange her time at all. Hope that she can cope up with it then.

8/29 sunny

Today jz like usual, we went out to buy things n then we came back to settle those things. sylvie has finally replied my msg, saying that i can jz go to my new school there n study without any problems, she will settle our tuition fee with jpa, but the hostel thingy is jz like that. need to wait till 1 sept to get my room number n then only i can go for the ups website there to fill in all those details for moving, quite troublesome.

8/28 sunny

That fellow is back but it is jz like usual for me, since nthg has changed. Now still waiting for them to reply my e mail n i cant actually do anything about it. N today is also our first anniversary day. Hmm, alrdy 1 yr, didnt notice it all. last yr i was in the klia airport when she sent me the msg,
saying that we would be in a relationship, quite a yr then. it did happen a lot of things between us back then, we quarrelled, then we get back together n so on n so on. Hmm, i hope we can still become together for the next time n hope that she can stand for it when i amnt beside her for this one yr time then.

8/27 cloudy

Tmr that fellow will be back to rennes alrdy. n after tmr is the due day that i must start to settle those things alrdy, cant wait for anymore longer. Need to send e mail to slyvie to inform her about my new school n also try to get my new adresse n lyon too. wat can i do then? jz wait wait wait, i
cant help it. haiz.

8/26 sunny

I had been back for about a week, n yet i came out with nthg till now. Really hate those kind of feeling of waiting.Hmm, now still waiting for my adresse exact at lyon there, so i cant do anything about it lol. haiz, jz wait wait wait. other ppl are still holidaying, especially those who are studying in uk, so damn jealous about them. summer break for around 4 months. while for me, have to go back earlier to settle those things, really is a waste of my time. I prefer to use those time to spend with my family or with her. Wat to do then?

8/25 rainny

Nthg to do today too, except for some movies. Hmm, that fellow is coming back today too, meaning that i only got few days left to be alone here. I tried to settle some problems with the ups, but since i dunno where do i live exactly next yr, so i cant really solve it. Still the same, waiting for other people to reply my e mail, to give me more details about it. Hopefully i can settle it within these few days then, or else i will jz sit in the house n come out with nthg at all, too boring.

8/24 sunny

Today, nthg special. I jz stayed at home n did nthg, still waiting for my reply. After all, i still got 2 more weeks to go be4 going to the new town. Dunno wat to do. N we got quarrelled again. This time is because i said she is only interested in my money only. Haiz, playing too much, i guess. But,

sometimes she is also like that, like to play a lot n didnt even care about my feeling at all. Watever. Jz hope that she didnt get angry, i was jz playing around with her only.

valentine's day gift for u

On this valentine's day, i jz wanna grab this opportunity to make a post here. I alrdy cant be ur side there to celebrate it with u, and if i dont ever do something to pay u back, sure u will feel kinda down or disappointed. Ah ah, dont try to comfort me by saying that it is really nthg, but actually, deep down inside ur heart, u do really care, right? Every gal will jz care about this day, not to mention i am ur first bf too. So, where to start then? Kinda lost here. Actually, u jz cant say urself that u dont hv a single good point inside of u. If u think carefully, u sure hv some good points about urself. N only till now that i know that, actually u do care a lot about our thingy, but u jz pretend that u dont really care much, cause maybe the most important thing is, u wanna hv more freedom on urself. But i also cant deny that the fact that u dont really care much is because u hv faith in me n trust me that ever do something to break our promise or relationship. Sagittarus ppl actually believes anyone very easily, that is the main reason y they get hurt n hurt other ppl very easily. Still remember last time how i told u? Dont believe anyone so easily, time can prove u a lot of things one n tell u who are trusthworthy n who arent. Now, i still give u back this advice. Dont ever trust anyone so easily, neither me, jz leave to time to tell u who can be trusted n who cant. I didnt mean that i want u not to trust every single word of me anymore, but i jz wanna protect u as long as i can, protect u from getting hurt because u can trust some one so easily. Protect u means protect u from any harm either it is from other ppl or from me, that is my promise. I will keep that promise n i only want u to trust me after i do so. Jz dont want u to get hurt anymore.

We actually have been together for more than 5 months n i think a lot of friends know about our thingy alrdy. Hope that they dont bully u too much because of that. N only now i notice that actually i did nthg for u n yet u alrdy made a video for me last time. I still kept it there in my dekstop here n watch it over n over again when i am free n when i miss u or feel like wanna hug u. Although u didnt put any song in there, it is still very nice. I am so sure that ur face sure looked so damn xing fu n happy when u made it last time. Haha. Kinda like to see ur face like that, at least i know that u are actually very happy when we are together. U dont feel any stress or tension with me, jz feel very relieved n enjoy. That is all i want to see in ur face there. When u feel shy or ur face turns red, i am so sure that u will look very cute that time. Haha. N that time i jz wanna hug u very tighty in my chest n dont ever wanna let u go. Haha. That was for ur video, but the photos that u took in sg, i am so sure that those one with a heart in it or those one with i love u are actually for me one. U dont deny it there. Haha. I really feel so happy when the first time i saw them. I also know that u actually wanna tell me those words alrdy, but u jz feel shy n those words are very hard to come out from ur mouth. Nvm, jz take ur time n if still cant, jz forget it because i know wat do u really wanna say to me deep down in ur heart there. N for that post during cny, I never expected that u would actually write about me there, even though i am the last one there. Haha. U always feel very shy about letting other ppl knowing about us, so that time i wasnt expecting to see my part even at the last part of the post. I thought u would jz write about ur parents, ur cousins, n then ur friends only. N for my part, u jz keep in down inside ur heart there again. But, u actually put it down there . Feel very happy with it. I wanna like that post a long time alrdy, but thinking about the consequence that all ur friends would know about our thingy n then they would start bullying u afterwards, so i jz did nthg lol. If u really dont feel anything about it, i think we can jz let anyone know about it alrdy, but for this question, i jz wanna know how u think about it, cause u are my gf n i cant decide all thingy myself alone. See? Jz cincai mention, i alrdy cant think about those thingy that u actually did for me alrdy. But, i think that i hardly did anything for u, even till now. Too far? Distance is jz an excuse. Hmm. But at least i think that u are actually very enjoy the way i sayang u n care about u now n that is the most important thingy. Still remember wat i say last time? My style is, i dont really like keep bluffing there, but i will prove it to u n by that time, u can decide whether wanna trust me or not. N over the things that u change because of me n for every single 'good night' from u in the early morning, i really really wanna say thx to u. Jz keep it this way will be enough for me alrdy, n in return, i will sayang u hug u n make u feel xing fu till wanna die. Hahah.

err...wat to say anymore? I plan to write the longest post in my blog jz for today this special occassion. Hmm...Although we keep fighting everytime, n make u got insomia after that, we still hang up to now. Really wanna thx you although we maybe wont be together in the future, jz like u say, but i jz wanna say thx you to u n cherish everyday when hanging out with u. Sometimes i feel very funny too, cause jz few nights be4 we got fighting again n i said out some words till make u have insomia that time. I said i will try not to care u so much anymore cause it will make me feel very hurt n sad everytimes. But i think it isnt really the best solution. The best one will be not to care much about ur bad behaviours, like talking without thinking or without considering other's feeling or watever. I think that is the best for us. Jz try not to care much about ur bad attitudes n jz always think about the good things inside u urself. By that, sure we wont be fighting as often as now. Jz accept u being like that cause everyone sure got nice attitudes that u like so much n bad attitudes that u dont really like at all. N if we continue to be so stupid, trying to find the best person who hv only good attitudes n can suit u in every ways, then i really wanna feel sorry for u, because u will never be able to find someone like that. There is jz something in every person that u dont like at all, but wat can u do is to accept him or her
because u love him or her n try to cover all those things by ur love towards him or her. That is the only way for a relationship to be able sustain till the end of our life. Jz appreciate n cherish every way the person is n not to critik her or him for being so n asking her or him to change for u, that is jz being selfish. I think i still a long way to go be4 i can truly be mature enough to protect u in the future. Jz wait for me n i will become more mature next time, ok, bao bei? But that time u also very funny lol, can really sacrificed urself so much, still laughing there n replied my msg like that. I think for most of the gals, after receiving that kind of msg will alrdy cry till wanna kill me. Really speechless on ur spirit, always trying sacrifice urself for everyone, especially the one that u love cause u dont want them to feel sad. So, in order to do so, u jz pretend to be happy although i know that, that time sure u really really really felt like wanna cry alrdy. Haiz. Jz wanna say sorry once again although it isnt a nice one to say it out on valentine's day. U are really tough enough to stand that thingy n can even study after that till 4 like that cause u also know that u wont be able to sleep that night. haiz. haiz. Actually u do care a lot deep down inside ur heart, right? Altough everytime u jz say dont really care, dont really care much one. Ppl who really do care a lot will try to do anything to pretend that they dont really care jz dont want other ppl to see how care they really are n how weak or how sad are they. N i also know that gals' first love are always so true one n so sincere one. Really feel sorry everytimes will jz make u feel so sad n cry there.

This time, although i cant manage to send u those things, because i am afraid that they wont be able to reach u there n then later cant see one, but at least i still manage to send u a postcard because i really really dont want u to feel very lonely during this special day. Alrdy cant being around u the whole day, at least i can still come out with something so that u can feel my presence n a little bit of an quan gan. So, i jz sent u that postcard to recompense it. N i also feel
very funny about the postbox system in ur school there. ahahah. Not supposed that u ppl should hv one box for each n different room? Y need to be troublesome to collect the whole things together n then to distribute the thingy according to alphabet? So noob. hahaha. Maybe dont hv enough money, so can hv a separate postbox for every separate room? dunno, maybe. haha. watever. Jz that, if like that, then i wont be able to give u any surprise anymore, cause i will need to tell u everytime i send u something, jz to make sure that u receive it in the end. If like this, then no more fun alrdy. haiz, sad sad. Watever. N for those 2 thingy, next time when we meet up, then i will hand them over to u, ok? N one more thing, i jz wanna say again, dont feel that u urself dont hv any good points anymore, jz hv some confidence in urself, u do actually very well as a gf alrdy, jz that maybe u didnt even notice it. So, jz continue be urself, ok? N for that question about hanging together in the future one, that question, i also know that u cant promise me anything, cause u are afraid that u wont be able to do it in the end n later make me get hurt n feel sad. Jz take ur time n dont think too much about it, n cherish everyday when we are still together. Let time to decides it then n u will know the answer in future. I think i got nthg more to say alrdy, n this post should be very far long enough alrdy. So this together with the postcard is my valentine's gift for u at least for now then. The doll that i showed u last time, that one will be urs when we meet up next time then. Love u and miss u.