This is where all it begins...

Holding a cup of tea with my left hand, right hand on the mouse of my laptop, listenning to Konoyo no Uta by Iwasaki Taku, a japanese song that I like very much, I , finally start to grab on my laptop and try to create my blog for anyone of my friends, whether close or not. Seriously, I had never thought of that someday I will create a blog, something that I usually thought is a useless piece of shit. Haha, kind of funny, is it? By the way, I dont really have any idea of where to start my stories. Till now, I am still talking nonsences, some sort of rubbish for anyone of you, but I jz keep taiping and if I were you, I mean in your place now, sure I had closed this page long time ago. Haha, pls do feel free to do so, nobody will stop you, neither me. Alright, finally know where to start already.

Actually, writting this piece of shit, sorry, this blog, isnt my style at all. Then, y am I doing so? Wasting all over my time for this useless thing, I would rather go sleeping or go find some friends to gg, although I am a true feeder, anyway. This few days, actually, I had been having some problems, sentiment problems, dont know wat is wrong anyway. Then I jz poured it all over to one of my friends, a best friend and then he suggested me of writting all it down on my blog. And, tonight, the famous mooncake festival night, I am alone in my house in Rennes, France. Feeling lonely and dunno wat to do to pass the time, I jz start to write this blog. And for the language, I had been thinking of using chinese to do it, but after considering for the second time, it is better to write it in english in order to make it look nicer and by the way, it is damn difficult to write in chinese.

I think it is all for the beginning, and now we are going into same details about myself.

Japan? Why choose France?

Now I am going to talk about myself, so if you feel bored or watsortever, jz leave at once. Well, let's get back in time to 12 March 2007 afternoon. This day, was the result release day. After all, there was nothing so special about it, right? Jz like another normal day for someone. I got a quite good result, meaning that I could apply for the jpa scholarships. Great, a nice shot by the way. So, the next day, I went to Vinson's house, as usual, in order to improve my english and learn how to play guitar at the same time. Haha. I skipped my classes? Well, wat a good question, and my answer is yes! I had been skipping classes for half of the year. Oups, I will rather use we here, instead of I, because vin was doing exactly the same thing as I did. Haha. Back to our point. I went there for another purpose, by the way. I needed his help to apply for the jpa scholarships. Actually, we 2 had always been planning to go to japan to continue our studies. Hence, it was really a nice chance for us to apply for engineering in japan together. But, suddenly I saw this bullshit thing that changed my entire life. A diploma? Wat the hell were you talking about? If i went to japan, I could only get a diploma? Was I mistaken or deaf or watsortever. Wat a damn shit! You must be kiddding! This couldnt be happen.

Sitting down on the sofa, I tried my best to calm down myself and think of the consequences if ever I got a diploma only. Then, Vin jz came beside me and asked me not to look down on diploma and told me that it was our only chance to make ourselves to japan. I was speechless that time. Well, I had been hoping to go to japan someday in the future since I was form 3, even till now! But, if I could only get a diploma, it was really embarrasing for me! For me, at least it should be a degree or higher. But this one? Wat the hell governement was doing? After seeing some changes on my face, he told me that he would still apply for that course, because the main point was that he could get to japan. And then, he asked for my decision. Then I said I would rather choose other courses that at least provide me with a degree. And, randomly, I chose French programme. After that, we really had a quarrel over my decision. But there was nothing I could do, right?

In the end, I got wat I chose, but he didnt get it. But, he got another scholarships to go to singapore to study for 3 yrs, while for me need to go to france to study for around 6 or 7 yrs. Haha. kind of funny, right? Planning to go japan together but in the end, nobody made it. And then, I heard that if you had good result in japan, you could ask the governement to prolong your scholarships. Bullshit governement. Now only mentionned it, why they didnt want to mention it earlier? Wat a damn shit thing, NCAA!! By the way, I also applied another scholarships. This time, it was a japanese scholarships, offering to those foreign students to study in japan for free and work there. A nice one, right? But the thing is, I only received the letter from the embarassy around the time when I was preparing to come to france. It was too late already. I was asked to go for a test in Kl on 1 june, the day that I would be on the flight going to france. Kidding again? That time, I really had a feeling to reject that stupid scholarships from the governement and go to kl for a try. But, I didnt dare to speak it out to my parents, because I think they would most probably have killed me if I had spoken my thought out. Giving up the thing that is sure belong to you in order to chase after another that is beyond your ability? Wat a nice joke from the God anyway. Knowing that I couldnt change anything, I jz gave it up and admet my destiny.

The flight

It is blogging time again. Y am I keep spending my precious time for such a useless thing? Whatsortever. 1 june 2007, the day that I wont forget in my whole life. Finally, the time had came. I went to kl one day before, because my house is in Sibu, and I was afraid that airasia would probably delay the flight. So, in order to play safe, I had decided to go there a day earlier and stay one night in my friend's house. Till now, I amnt sure whether it was a coincidence or what, because that night, my friend was having a farewell party with all of his close friends. He invited me to come along and there was no reason for me to reject it too. After all, a farewell party, sounds pretty good, right?

So, I went. But the thing that I had never predicted was that, y there was such a weird feeling in my heart when I saw his friends and him were playing and enjoying the dinner together? Friends, I also got dozens of them and they can also be as close as them too. So, what the hell was going wrong with me? Well, sitting isolated oneself around the corner and kept thinking for a quite long time, finally I came out with my conclusion. I thought that I was not yet prepared to come to france. That time, we only got one week holiday to say goodbye to our beloved ones, our family and all of our friends. Was it enough? I dont think so. So, it was obvious that I still got something that was left behind and hadnt done yet before moving on. I didnt say goodbye to my family properly. And i didnt have a farewell party with all my friends properly like my friend did. But, I was still glad that some of my best friends had really spent a nice night with me during my one week miserable holiday. And, the most of all, I didnt say out my true feeling to her...

The next day was the most cruel one. All of my friends who were going to france with me were together in the airport with their parents, except me, who was alone around the corner. I didnt blame my parents for not coming to say goodbye to me, serious, because I know that the flight ticket wasnt so cheap not to mention my family financial condition that time. I comforted myself saying that, nevermind, at least my parents had already sent me to sibu airport yesterday, and I considered that as my last reunion with my family. Then I took out my hp and made a call back home, telling my parents that now I was going to go to france and asked them not to worry about me, all will be fine as usuall. And then, we went aboard and most of my friends were crying after they checked-in. Their parents were sobbing when they said farewell to them. I talked to myself that time, it was about time to start a new journey already. But, I didnt feel excited like most of my friends did, and the reason was so obvious. It was because france has never been my destination in my life. I will jz consider it as a transit before going to Japan someday.

Time flies

Finally it is holiday. At last, I got time to finish up this boring blog. Where was I last time? oh, yes. Time flies. So, it was finally the time for me to leave my town and move to other to continue my studies. My first town in france was Colmar, not famous at all, sure u guys never heard it before, dont care much about it. The very frist time when I arrived in Colmar, I had never treated it as my home. I jz simply called it my transit, and never called my room here as my home. The reason I came here was because the Jpa people sent my here, that was it. Nthg more. And after one yr, I will be moving on to other town, so if it isnt a transit, then wat is it? And after all, I had been too busy for the whole yr. Could you guys imagine for a while that we were asked to finish two yr syllabus in one yr time? Besides that, we also needed to study french. And I tell u guys, french is a lot more difficult than english, and mastering a new language isnt really my stuff, u know, because I dont really like languages these kind of boring things. So time really flied. It really did.

At last, we managed to finish the course. And it was finally the holiday time and everyone was so happy that we can finally go back to malaysia after staying one yr in france. This was also the first time for me to go overseas, so I, indeed was really excited and was eagerly to go back to my real hometown. By the way, we also needed to settle our moving stuff before going back to malaysia. But, moving isnt a easy case in france. Firstly, we need to clean up our house and then someone will be sent to check whether our house is clean enough or not. If not, congratulation, the deposit that you had put in for the house before you moving in will be deducted. In the worst case, you will also be asked to pay a fine that costs around hundreds euros. So, in order to avoid this thing, one and single advice, better keep your ass working and clean up your house before that fellow coming to your house.

Therefore, I did like I mentionned above. I cleaned my house. When I was busy cleaning, that time only I did realise that I had been staying here for more than one year. I enjoyed the view right in front of it and I witnessed the first snowing night in Colmar right in front of my house. Leaves falling during autumn, snowing day during winter and flower blooming day during spring. All these things I can see it jz in front of my house. Suddenly, I got some strange feeling that came out from my heart, I didnt really want to move away to other town. By that time only that I began to call it my home. Kind of funny, right? When we are going to lose it, then only we start to appreciate it, right? hahaha

So, the guy finally came to check my house. Everything went out smoothly. He told me that my house was clean enough, so I need to pay nothing and he only needed my signature and all would be jz fine. Then, I handed over all my keys to him and walked out. Outside, I looked back my house for the last time and said thank you for the first and the last time. After that, it was time for me to start a new journey in a new town already.

The holiday

Finally, the holiday came. But, going back to our country isnt a easy case as you could imagine. Firstly, take a bus from our house with all the laggages, then take a train from Colmar to the airport, take the flight to London, then take another flight from London back to Kl, then only another flight from Kl to Sibu airport. Wat the hell? That was truly a damn long journey. I put around two days for the whole journey. Watsortever. The point is, I finally reached my home. Haha. Then only my holiday started.

"The infinite mystery. The gift of the goddess is what the three man seek, but their fates are scattered by war. One becomes a hero, one wanders the land and the last is taken prisoner...."

A line from ff7 crisis core. I really like this line, but for my case, I would say it this way

"The infinite mystery. The gift of the goddess is what the three man seek, but their fates are scattered by war. One becomes a teacher, one wanders in Kuching and the last one is taken to prisoner in overseas..."

Haha. I was bursting into laugh after I had taiped out this line. It descibes fully the situation among three of us, kna, nyj and me. Hahaha. Nice one. The next day, I called out nyj. He is still the same, no change at all. Still so noob and fooling around there and here. Haha. Got a friend like him really nice. But one thing is, I really want to thank him from the bottom of my heart. But untill now, I had never said it out, because everytime when I wanted to do so, I counldnt continue my sentence to the end after seeing his noob face. Haha. I want to thank him is all because, during form 4, he got say something to me. I dont think that he still remember it, but for me, it is really a important sentence."If you dont hv a noob friend like me, u sure had gone crazy because of stress." Haha. Wat a joke. Only he can figure it out. But now, when I look back, he sure got his point. Back to my form 4, I did got a lot of stress because of studying. But, he was in my class and he was always making jokes with me and fooling around in the class. And, only he dares to argue with me in physics, and sometime he did hv his point too. Haha. Not a noob after all. Nearly every afternoon he came to my house to borrow my notes or exercises to copy. But surprisingly, he got 11 as, almost the same result as me, quite a pro. But he didnt admit it at all and told me that his result came from copying my notes. Copying till pro? Haha, once again I was bursted into laugh. Only he can come out with that kind of reason. Haha. Watsortever, at least, I felt glad that I managed to help him, but didnt know whether this kind of help was good or not. So, since his result was so good, he was also qualified to apply jpa, that damn scholarships. But, sadly, he didnt get it, and now is still fooling around in kuching. The hero is kna. He and nyj also came to my house to borrow my notes. Copying, but he didnt come out with a very good result. But at least, he got wat he wanted and now is in kuching too. One thing interesting about him is, he is always there listening to all my nonsences when I called him out. Dunno whether he really likes to bother others' business or not, but, I really glad that I have a listenner like him. The thing that surprised me is that, both of them hv gf already. Haha. Quite pro. But seriously, I amnt jealous at all, jz that, feel very funny. It is because last time, it was always me who was talking about girls in front of them, but till now, I am still single. Kna got gf? still acceptable, but that noob got gf? wao, that is really something. Proer than his teacher. Haha. Watsortever, really glad got friends like them.

Again, time flies. And I didnt meet with kna when I was in sibu. Same cas for most of my friends, who were busy studying in kl that time. So, it was time for me to go back to france again. But, one week before my flight, eddie, arthur, nyj and me went out together to forever. Eddie was having his trial that time, but he jz gave it up because all of us were going back and he wanted to hv somesort of farewell pary with us. But in forever? Haha. A gg player though. Haha. Watsortever. Feeding a friend is really my honnor for me, by the way. So, our last gg match was held in forever, with eddie who was having his trial the next day. Haha. Really feel sorry for him. That time, we really had great fun.

Time to leave already. Going back to france, but this time, I had done all that I wanted to do. So, I didnt feel sad of coming back, neither regret.